berakhir sudah~

I am unofficially done with FYP~
yeay!!!!!!!
but to be at this moment was a hell of hardship....
insufficient sleep... unstable emotions... losing appetite... and i havent played tennis for a while!!!!
but lucky me... everything were worth it!!!
i dont care what grade will I obtain eventually... but I did my best...
so no regret~
in fact, this is the 1st time in my life academic life that I haven't feel any REGRET~
*wow~ how pathetic my student life was

netball

the journey ended yesterday... we were down with 4 matches before we won the last 1... but it was too late to advance to the next round...

but having the opportunity to play netball was amazing!!!
yeah... NETBALL and we are guys~
I know some people out there might still have the taboo about guys playing netball... but here's to clear something... THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH GUYS PLAYING NETBALL!!!
bukannya kita masuk tourney n bertanding dgn perempuan...
bukannya kita main netball, kita kena jadi perempuan*kalo kes2 'lembut2' tu x bole nk cakap pa la... tp itu xda kaitan ngan netball kan?
senang cakap... tiada 1 pun yg berubah kalo kita main netball... unless we ourselves wanted to change... tu da masuk crita lain la~

i was chit-chatting with someone the other day...
dia cakap so far, men netball is not an official sport yet... sebab tu kategori ni x mcm game perempuan... siap ada world championship...
kategori lelaki ni bergantung pd penganjur la... kalo dorang rasa mau buat kategori lelaki utk tourney yg dorg anjur, it's their call...
so I asked why...
then dia jawab "susahlah... ada sesetengah pihak yg x mau sukan netball dibuka kpd lelaki sebab perempuan akan kehilangan 1 1 nya sukan yg di'conquer' oleh perempuan"*ok... something like that

HELLO??? what are we? 12 yo???
in my opinion, it should not be a problem at all!!!
mcm yg saya cakap tadi la... bukannya kita akan main ngan perempuan... kita main ngan lelaki!!!
kalau sukan RUGBY boleh... kenapa tidak netball?
how's that different???

hmm~
ok2... enough with being emo2... nnt hilang pula mood..
I just want to thank all my teammates and the coaches and everyone involved in the tourney...King, Amir, Kurt, Fitri, Kah Kit, Syahir, Along, Kak Ayu, Fyda, Sitah, Zana, UniMAP Bahan, UniMAP Alam Sekitar, UniMAP MASUM, UniMAP Staff n semua yg x ter'list'... well u guys know who u r~ *jgn amik ati plak~ hehehe
you guys gave me another precious experience n memory in life~
hehehehehe~

so here's a treat from me... this is the last match (we won) against Cobra Alpha... *but this is not the full video... King's hp was running out of bat... credit to Zana for helping us to record the vid

**sorry 4 d poor quality.. i'd to compressed almost 300mb vid size to 80mb vid size...

GA - Cheong Kah Kit a.k.a Kah Kit
GS - Muhammad Fitri Salleh a.k.a Fitri
WA - Raja Ahmad Izzat Raja Zazali a.k.a King
C - Myself
WD - Mohd Redzuan Sutimin a.k.a Kurt
GD - Saiful Azam Anuar a.k.a Along
GK - Mohd Amir Idhzuan Johari a.k.a Amir

monolog

me : it's almost the end of the semester...
happy!!!

Q : but wait... how's your FYP going on???











me : DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate it when people ask me that~
fyi, me terpaksa tambah 8 more runs to AT LEAST make my screening acceptable...
aduh!!! just when I thought everything will be fine... taw2 jadi mcm ni...
actually, running the experiment is not my main concern...
the main problem now is...
KENA HANTAR REPORT MINGGU DEPAN!!!
they didnt gave us exact date actually... so that means I can still pass up on Friday, 22th April...
tp mesti nampak "lain" when I'm the only 1 sikit org jak yg hntr Jumaat nnt... kan?
to be honest... I'm optimist that I can get everything done in time...
tp faham2la quality kerja last minute mcm mn kn?
bukan mau ckp slama ni my kerja2 semua berkualiti... NO... but this is not something to be taken lightly...
hello~ FYP kot... slack skit dlm report... bole jadi bahan bukti dlm mahkamah nnt...
*okay... I exaggerated too much~
the main point is... I want to make my thesis as perfect as I could...
after all... sepa yg suka kena tembak time viva kn?
writing the thesis carelessly tu kiranya mcm gali kubur sendiri la... which I dont want!!!
nnt sia2 usaha selama ni... pulun buat exp... lari sna lari sni... berdiri berjam2 smpi kaki rasa mau patah...*more to pinggang ekceli... hehehe~ not having enough sleep sebab stay up mau buat thesis... *tp kalo lyn drama series ok plak kan? oops~ tp bila viva... HANCUR!!!
huhu... I seriously, affirmatively DONT want that!!!











Q : so what are you waiting now???
go back to work!!!!

me : sabarla!!! tgh sieving lagi ni!!!! I want to at least do these today :
1. sieve raw material at least >50g
2. run at least 2 experiment - 1 RUN JER SEBAB TECH PROB... 7 MORE TO COME
3. run as much FT-IR analysis as much as I could *could be more but someone stole some of my time
4. get Chapt 1 n 3 done for good!!! EPIC FAIL!!!
*by 12am... I'll cross out whichever I've done~

cheating

on 1 night after training... I had a conversation with some friends...

have you ever feel so angry and jealous of your classmates when your tests/quizzes/assignments came out with low marks???
1. jealous - because they get higher grades than yours...
2. angry - because they get higher grades in wrong ways = CHEATING aka COPYING

I remember this one really damn well because it was SO CONTRADICTING with my principle back then... it was 2004... a friend once quoted "YOU'RE A TOTAL IDIOT IF YOU DONT CHEAT/COPY WHEN YOU CLEARLY HAVE THE CHANCE"
that was 2004's story...
when I was struggling with my carry marks during my 2nd year of degree... a friend told me what our favourite lecturer told him... "BETTER COPY OTHERS' ASSIGNMENT IF YOU CANNOT FINISH IT ON TIME SO THAT IT WOULD NOT COST YOU YOUR MARKS"(*this is not how the lecturer conveyed the message... but this is what I understood from the conversation... the lecturer might be meaning to tell something else, but you get the point~)
another friend told me how his lecturer used to tell him that "YOU ARE LESS A FOOL IF YOU CHEAT IN YOUR TESTS, BUT YOU ARE AN EXTREME FOOL IF YOU CHEAT, AND GET CAUGHT RED HANDED"

so is it okay to cheat? it's an open-ended question... no answers are right, nor wrong~
it all comes back to INTEGRITY~
but integrity 24/7 wont bring us anywhere... at least that is what I thought...
sometimes, we need to take the back door...
it's easy~ TO KILL, or TO BE KILLED(*I really love this phrase- expect more of this later on)
when you cheat, doesnt mean you are wrong... but it doesnt mean that you are right either...
but depending on the situation, the cheating might just help your ass out...
I'm not asking people to start cheating... especially the students - including me~
but trust me, we are already cheating in the first place...

I don't know about you guys... but I'd like to conclude that CHEATING IS OK IN A MODERATE WAY~


p/s - quoted from someone... "I'm less interested whether you are cheating or not in your test... what's important is how you are going to apply everything you've learnt in your life"

my story part 2

...
so here's where the story continues...
...
..
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the bus arrived at 10.45pm... I was so angry at that time~
the problem was... I need to book for a flight ticket asap... but I couldnt do that until I'm certain that I could make it on time... and the late bus arrival made the situation worst... no!!! the fact that I've a mobile phone with no battery was what made it worst!!!
I did succeeded texting Pulah to help me book for the earliest flight available though...
when I look at the speed of the bus... I was certain that the time was behind me... but then the bus stop for like 30minutes at Kulim... oh my God!!! there were only 5 passengers... but why wait for 30min??? the bus was late at the first time... shouldnt they rushed to catch up with the lost precious time???
at 1st... I planned not to fall asleep with a stupid motive - so that I can check the TIME~
but my body just couldnt take it and I slept...
arrived at Bukit Jalil at 5am and quickly grabbed a cab... destination : KLSentral...
but the driver told me that he can drive me directly to LCCT... optimist, I took the offer...
on the way to the LCCT, I've been checking time like hell... wishing that I'll not be late... and I've already made a Plan B... should I came less than 30minutes b4 6.50am, I'll leave my luggage and asked anyone of my friends or cousins to get them for me... but if time is with me, then everything should be fine...
arrived at the LCCT 6.05am... phew~
problem solved? so close... yet so far~
when I entered the hall... the time was actually 6.58am!!!! STUPID CAB!!! reset your damn clock!!!
I was helpless...
I started to think that maybe I shouldnt go back... or maybe I just should wait at Penang...
then... the optimist aura came back to me...
went to the nearest ATM machine and check my account balance...
when the figure came out... RM450++ !!!!!!!!!
I was shocked!!! But then I realized that I didnt even leave my IC number to Pulah...
I was relieved... I withdraw as money cash as I could from all my active accounts and buy a new ticket...
and everything was solved~~~~~


that surely was one of a great lesson that I should learn and remember to death... we might have the perfect plan... but God will always have the final words... always have a back up plan in no matter what you do...

my story part 1

28th January 2010...
the day when everything went SO FUCKING WRONG!!!
it all started as early as when I tried to get a cab...
that uncle 1st stated that everything has been arranged... but when I'm ready, I called him once again to re-confirm...
and guess what?
"aiya... itu 1006 suda kluar o... u cari taxi lain..."
luckily Cepot gave me 2 contact numbers... and I did get a cab... at 2pm...
having the faith that there'll be a bus directly to Sg. Nibong, I'm optimist that I'll be on time... well actually I'm pretty confident of it because the person that told me that has been using that bus...
however, when I arrived at the terminal, I'd sensed something wrong...
true to my hunch, there were no bus...
I made up my mind to take the same cab to Butterworth...
supposedly, everything went fine and in time... but what the hell? this driver stopped for another customer... to make it worst, he prioritized the latter customer when it SHOULD BE ME!!!
next thing - I was detained from proceeding to the ferry by this guard... damn!!! there were 5 of us... all with luggages... but mine was the biggest... but why detained only me? why let the other through? and I wonder... do they really do that? As far as I could remember, they usually will just let us through... I've been there with larger luggage... or am I really have that stereotype criminal-looks on my face? or was it my behaviours that lead to suspicion??? (what can I do afterall??? i was in a hurry~)
and due to that... I miss the ferry by mere seconds... it was so frustrating when the gate is closing and there's nothing much you can do besides shouting, begging them to wait for you...
by that time... I already knew that my flight will be a waste...
long story short, I did missed the flight... theoretically, I didn't... but technically, it was less than 10minutes before departure...
I could wait for the next flight which is the day after or wait for the earliest MAS flight at higher price...
but I chose the odd 1... I made up my mind to go KL... it was sure a rush to Penang Sentral...
next challenge - all bus were occupied...
than there was this one person... offering bus at 10pm... I grabbed the ticket considering how desperate I was...
when I thought everything was over... the bus was not there until 10pm....



oh no... I am too tired to keep on typing... so I'll make the 2nd part of my story later on when I come back again... maybe 5 days from now... keep waiting~

one night in my room

wake up this morning with mixed feelings...
but more to annoyed...
a little bit dizzy... an indicator of how sleep deprived i am...
and i started to blame that 'someone'...
how can you be so selfish???
you came into my room... and you make noises as you wish...
dont you see how i was trying to get a sleep??? or you would rather see me giving a slap to your face??? i wonder~
yes... it's a public holiday the day after...
but that doesnt mean that i have to sleep late... why put misery to yourself when it's as crystal clear that you can take it anymore? that's what i called STUPID!!!
now the only reason why i didnt speak up was because you are my friend (it's hard to admit though)... but you are way too much...
i really hold back yesterday because i dont want to cause a scene...
but that's it...
last night was the last one...
try me again n let see where it lead us...
*hint : i'm not a physical-thingy guy...

fyp : off-topic

do you ever feel like "i know it's not my problem and i should stay away from it... but damn!!! that's just disturbing me!!!"
i do... all the time~

SOME people around me babbled about their FYP (*read FYP = Final Year Project)...
about how their progress is halted due to some reasons... and how they are worried for not being able to finish it on time...

duh~ like i care???

for me... how could you say you are worried when your action showed the other way round? when you are worried... you'll be busy moving here and there... meeting up your SV or co-SV like almost every seconds whenever possible... not just being idle and babbling of how worried you are~ you have time to sleep MORE than you should have when some of us are sacrificing ours... you have more time to do something which is totally nonsense... you still can make fun or look down at people who's struggling to get theirs done, yet you still babble... dont you think it is kind of reversal here?we are the one who SHOULD complaint!!!

and i hate the idea of taking other people as a scapegoat to hide the guilt inside you... you expect your SV or co-SV to be there for you 24/7... you expect them to solve EVERYTHING for you when you could use some of your POVs instead of relying on them (*afterall this is what you are going to do... you have the words too)... and when they failed to meet your expectation... you blamed them...

err... i think you've forgotten something here... they are ALL human being!!! they can't be there for you the whole time... and guess what? they have MUCH better and IMPORTANT things to do other than helping you free-riders!!!

well, i'm not saying these to any particular person... in fact, this goes to myself as well... as a reminder to do work mutually with my SV and co-SV... though i know i may be lacking in most parts and unconsciously fit to some of the 'bad things' i've been crapping above... but i told ot myself... at least i'm a step better than these GROUP of people because i showed some efforts... PERIOD~

Happy New Year 2011

it is now 2011...
but nothing much has changed...
well to be honest, I dont really believe in new year resolution...so dont ask mine~thank you...
because i know, most of the time, the resolution will not be achieved...
dont get me wrong... i dont go against the idea of having some...
at least it reminds us to put some efforts to everything we do...
but it's quite annoying when we make such grand resolution but in the end, ended with nothing...
and, do we need to wait until new year to change something for good?
come on~ 1 year is too long!!!
life is too short... we'll never know when the time is up... and by then, it's too late to regret everything...
so why dont change everything for good from time to time?
that sounds better~

woah!!!!
finally a new update from me...
just re-activated my celcom broadband...
which mean i can post more updates from now on~

sporty bonding

i love sports...
i've realized it long time ago...
sports connect us...
it knows no boundaries...
political conflicts???? they can directly go to hell!!!

let's take a smaller view...

i was away from UniMAP for more than 6 months to do my internship...
during that period, the tennis team has been established and lots of new faces came to join...
so when i came back... there's only few faces i'm familiar with... Muna, Shuhud, Libren, Conlathan... the rest??? negative~
but through sports... which is obviously tennis... we are bonding...
and the culmination would be during the Phuket Trip... everyone mixed very well together...
and now, we are 1 new happy family... care for each other... isn't it a nice thing sports can do???

so what are you waiting for??? pick any sports to indulge yourself into... and you get to lead a healthy life as a bonus~
:)

there is a man in an island... with reasons~

how does it feels when people keeps pestering you over certain things???
ANNOYING and I feel like smashing their faces to the wall!!!
so please stop doing that!!!

by the way, I have a lot in pocket, waiting to be published but it seems I'm a little bit 'weak' when it comes to narrating those stories in term of words when I'm in no mood~ lame~~~~

now people always said that I'm snobbish...
I'm over with that type of accusation long time ago...
but truth be told... I'm offended~
you dont know me!!!
is it necessary to say I'm a man in an island???


*i dont owned the pic... just grab randomly from the net~


how will you react if I confess the real reason why I've been acting that way???
I do have my own comfort personal space and I HATE people overcrossing that line!!!
I've learnt how to be independent in some ways so I HATE people when they depend 100% on me!!!
I am a sensitive guy and I HATE irrational jokes especially when it comes to my races, my cultures and my hometown (I didnt include religion because I dont want to cause any problems - that's a common sense everyone SHOULD know!!!)
and I HATE you when you tried to poison my mind with your no class mentality about other races...

the list could go on and on but I think I'll stop at that point...
if you are good enough (well I remembered vividly how proud you were when you claimed that) you know what I mean from this post...
CHANGE!!!

1st in august

1st in august...
and what's that supposed to mean????

DAMN BUSY!!!

we have this Synthesis & Process Design mini project...
well according to my friend at UTP, it is similar to Final Year Design Project for Chem Eng students there.. which is a 'complementary' project aside from the FYP~
and ALL Chem Eng students all over Malaysia will have to do the same...
well since we (Bioprocess Eng) are from the root of Chem Eng... we have to face the consequences~

our topic???
Plant Design For The Production Of Biofuel
our progress???
<50%
due date for the 1st submission???
3rd Sept 2010
the due date has been postponed for a week but still... it's a time issue for all of us..
we have midterms waiting... GMP's PBL...another mini project(waste treatment) that yet to commence, and the main agenda - FYP!!!

great~ a 'nice' workloads for the final year students!!!



p/s - we are granted equal time of 24hrs/day... but its never enough especially for students like us... it's very hard to well-manage our time... we are more determine to spend our time doing things we like... that appears to be nonsense when compared to our education... what to do???

wishlist

top 3 of what I am going to get for this semester!!!

#1 new phone
well... I never buy a mobile phone using my own money... and come to think of it... some of my mobile phones were 'leftover' from my parents... even now... I am using my little brother's mobile phone... pathetic huh? that's why I decided to have one...
previously, I have Nokia 5800 XM in my mind... but the price is not worthy given that the phone was released in 2008... it should be around rm700++ in KK but here it's still RM800++
so I'm going for this phone... I told myself if I can any cheaper than RM990, I'll take it... why RM990? because my friend just bought it in Shah Alam and it was RM990...
guess what? I found 1 at RM970... I dont care if it is Zitron or AP phone... as far as I am concern... I really need a new phone... badly~
so wait for me NOKIA C6!!!



#2 new racquet
hahaha... I am a beginner in tennis... but I really feel like having 1 good racquet... I defined good racquet as a racquet that is being used by professionals... I have to admit that I was a Babolat fan before... since Roddick is using 1... but I changed my preference to Wilson... I was thinking of having Federer's latest BLX racquet... but to think wisely, using racquet that is being used by him is not going to make me star too... so I changed my choice to another racquet that have a bigger head size~ Federer's is 90" but this one is 100" since I always love a racquet with a bigger head size~
so wait for me WILSON BLX PRO OPEN




#3 new external harddisk
my laptop is very primitive compared to my friends'... what to do? I bought this Acer Aspire 5580 Series on early Jan, 2008~ previously, I have 2 ext hds of capacity 80gb... both... I don't know what was happening actually but at 1 time before I started my Industrial Training, both of them broke!!! I didn't really felt the lost of the hd... but I'm more frustrated of losing all the contents... whatever it is...
I'm going to get a 640gb EXTERNAL HARDDISK soon~





p/s - I'll get the top 2 as early as tomorrow... I've spotted the shop for the Nokia C6 and I'm waiting for my money... I've ordered the Wilson BLX Pro Open racquet and it is due next week~ ext hd? I'll wait for my allowance... which WILL take years~ but I can bear with it... lol~

govt staffs?

huhu... it's so hard to update this blog... why?

1. bad connection in hostel
2. stupid broadband

anyway...
here's my story...

"shit!!! I hate ALL government staffs!!!

I've overheard that from a girl last Saturday...
of course it is due to the poor management of the staffs...
well I was a bit furious upon hearing that...
hey, my parents are government staffs too... it's like she was talking bad to my parents!!!

but recently... I started to do the same... cursing SOME of the staffs...
maybe because I put my mom as my benchmarker...
she's a workaholic... she even bring her works to home!!!
so I find it hard to tolerate when I deal with people of the same nature of work, but with poor performances...
I was told that our scholarships were distributed already...
and my friends already received theirs...
but me???

I gave the Bendahari few more days and luckily when I check my online information after that, my fee has been already paid... of course it is deducted from the scholarship, simply saying that the money is now available~
but when a friend of mine came to pick up the cheque, they told him that they were IN THE MIDDLE OF ISSUING the cheque and they asked him to come again THE NEXT DAY
I came a little bit late that day and was told that they HAVEN'T PROCESS the cheque yet and I should come NEXT WEEK!!! and I try to test them... I called the next day... guess what was the answer???WE'VE ALREADY ISSUED YESTERDAY... BUT YOU CAN COLLECT THEM THIS FRIDAY~
wth????!!!

dont give different answers!!! when there is no specific answer, I consider it as excuses!!! and when it comes to excuses, it really shows that you DONT DO YOUR WORK!!!
argh!!!






p/s - sorry if I made the wrong accusation... but that is what I feel... I wonder... is it fair for the other government staffs that really dedicated to their work but they have to face these negative perceptions from the public? just because of SOME ungrateful people taking their jobs loosely???

busy

it's a 2nd week of a new semester already...
and as expected...
this semester is a total CHAOS!!!
it started with a COMPLETE OPEN-ENDED laboratory session...
and then the pile-up of on-going projects...

~sigh~

and the Final Year Project is not to be taken lightly~
and I still have to attend training session for team tennis...
argh~ I hardly have time to rest...
but being myself... I'll never back down!!!
bring it on and try me!!!





p/s - I'm still wondering how did I managed to handle 10 subjects, being a prefect, being a debater, and being an athlete for almost all sports during my golden secondary school years~ hmmm...

event #2 Tamat Latihan

okay...
we had 2 weeks training in UniMAP before going to UM...
some people were so fired up...
that it affected every words, actions and emotions...
in a good way... but also in a bad way~
it made us... no... SOME of us very tensed up...
apart from being a 2 tones skin-colour people!!!
the stories from day to day were too often mixed up with negative messages... at least from how I'd interpret those stories~





however...
things turned out to be better from our imagination when we arrived at UM...
the 1st day of training went by without us noticing...
I wouldn't complaint on the menu... since it's getting better... although we had to endure some period where we had identical menu everyday~ up to the point where I don't think that I'll be able to face any eggs anymore!!!





training?
the main problem was to make the many of us become ONE!
S.Y.N.C.H.R.O.N.I.Z.I.N.G~
the whole 2 weeks... that's what we were doing...
perfecting every moves... though to me seemed impossible...
fainting people were everywhere and at the end of the day, you wouldn't believe the figure... but that's normal...






sleeping deprivation was another problem... from 7am - 4pm we had training at the Padang Kawad... and from 8.30pm - 1am we had training at the Dewan Tuanku Canselor...
but that's just an approximation... some day it could be worst!!!!
main effect? unstable emotions and frequent mood changes~
I even saw a girl talked back to her Jurulatih in a very rude way~
and we had some issues with our Jurulatih too...
but in our case, I would personally blamed the egoism, ignorance, superiority and bad-communication...
sorry but I don't wish to remember back what had happened... to put thing simple... IMMATURE!!!








19th JUNE 2010...
one of my most memorable day in my life...
and I was very shocked to see how we marched that day...
I don't think that I'll be easily forget all the memories...
I've always told my friends how I hate being in SUKSIS...
but deep down inside me, I'll never regretted the choice I've made~



CREDIT TO : RAAI for the pics... taken from http://pkukmweb.ukm.my/~jurufoto/galeri%202010/tauliah%20suksis/index.html and KOPERALPJ for the vid... sorry I lost the link and I can't access YouTube from here~

a great start for a new semester?

argh!!!
I shouldn’t bought my return flight ticket on the 11th July… I still can work on something if I’m going back earlier…but how would I know that this will be happening???

Okay… there’s this massive changes in students residential… in other word, new house, new housemates and new roommate (damn it!!! I miss those days when a single room is still available – absolute privacy!!!)
Mine?



There you go… I’m the sole bioprocess 4th year student… Anuar? He was initially in the same batch as me… but due to some problems, he had to start as a 3rd year student… but that's what I heard from my friends... we don't have the click... whatever~ My roommate, Wan Mohd Asyrannie is in the same batch… but I never heard that name. So what I did was to search him on Facebook and I found him…19 mutual friends… okay~ familiar face… but it’s useless because I never talk to him… we are still strangers to each other

Trivia : He’s a PALAPES and I’m a SUKSIS… great? I doubt it~

The other guys… I’ve seen all of their faces except Hafizuddin… and Muhd. Nur is the current president of the student representative council… I don’t know if this is an advantage to me but I don’t feel good… huhu~ paranoid? No comment…
What makes me exaggerating thing is that most of my colleagues get to have their roommates from our colony(read : bioprocess engineering students) I don’t know about you guys but to have a roommate from the same course is really a big help~ but hey, this is nothing right? I’ve been in this situation before… and I survived… it’s not impossible to have a replay huh? And it’s only for 1 year… I think I can handle it(I hope….) and I can always ask to change room if I really want… so I guess problem is solved???

Yeah… but why do I still have these feelings???? I hate it!!!!


p/s – wondering how did they arranged us… if it is to instill integrity (1 Malaysia), they would considerably(is this even a word??) failed!!! There’s no Chinese or Indian in my house… and if it’s a random pick… doesn’t look so to me… or maybe lady luck is not with me?? Yeah~ that should be it… I really have limited good lucks (I didn’t get the free pass to MTV World Stage and I gave up after 1 week trying)

event #1 INTERNSHIP

industrial training aka IT...

if I were given a chance to turn back time, I will never pick palm oil mill!!!
when I 1st came to the mill, I have to admit that I had a very big expectation...
but I was turned down immediately...
why?
THE MANAGEMENT WAS VERY POOR!!!

I met the mill manager the next day and we had a less than 10 minutes discussion...
maybe I was the one to be blamed but I just dont know what else to ask... it's normal for a first timer... but it's not normal for the seasoned 1... I was not the 1st trainee... they should have known better~

I received my schedule 2 weeks after that... and thanks to my perseverance... I went to see the mill manager everyday asking for it... I am not blaming the mill manager... it's the clerk!!! and she always had this annoying expression whenever I asked for something...

ok fine~ bottom line, I still got the schedule... but hey~ the guideline was more into mechanical engineering... I was not surprised because the mill manager did asked what course I'm in... and when I told him I'm a BIOPROCESS ENGINEERING student, he showed me a face(read: what? you're not a mechanical engineering student? then what are you doing here?????) but he perfectly covered that by saying it's okay because I am learning... good point!

ok... I'll make this short... I did managed to study the whole process and understand every departments function... I did some hand jobs, a simple one though... bla bla bla~
my point is... I gained so little!!!! I am not complaining(actually I am) but giving me works that weren't my field is ridiculous!!! I ended up doing those works for the sake of completing the 6 months period of IT!!!I'm not applying what I've learnt theoretically in class... I was learning something new but with no guides!!! dont accused me of being ignorant... I did asked... but what do you expect from them? I went to the engineer and even the mill manager... guess what? here's the answer...
"IF I TELL YOU, WHAT'S THE POINT OF DOING IT?GO AND FIND IT YOURSELF" I am very lucky if the manager gave some explanation...(which he rarely did since he was busy)... 1 more thing... they expect me to do some hand on jobs... but they were too afraid to let me do the jobs!!! wtf??!! there's one incident where they took me as a scapegoat too!!! damn it!!!
*for those who have no idea click here

another thing that really made me sick was the way they think of something... well, not all of them but majority kills minority right? huh~ I dont think that I should write it down here... I'll tell you guys if you ask me once again... verbally~ haha...

however, looking on the bright side... my IT was not that bad...why? here's some of the reasons



p/s - I was not the only one who agreed with my point(read: giving me works that weren't my field is ridiculous)... the other trainees too, agreed... when the Mechanical Engineering student from UMS were told to learn the process, he confessed to me that it's wasting his time... it's not his field anyway, but for the sake of completiong IT with good comments, he did. Although this crap philosophy(what a word choice huh?) might seems acceptable among students, it might not in the real working world... we are paid to do our job. If our employer asks us to do what's beyond our expectation, than we have to(or at least give it our best) because it's our responsibility...

come back alert!!!

Ok… if you noticed, I’ve done some express make over to my blog… and I know I’ve been idling for a long time… whatever~ it’s just that I’m not as enthusiastic as I was before…

Luckily, I’ve found new reason why I shouldn’t quit doing this stuff…
Guess what? I’m going to undergo my remaining 1 year as an undergraduate soon… there will be (I hope) more dramas and conflicts… and I think it will be just nice to share these experiences with whoever stumbles on this site… accidently or intentionally… I prefer the latter~

Anyway, it’s not just for the dramas and conflicts… I reckon being in the final year will give me a shitty hell of living as a student… challenges will rise unstoppable… to prevail or to fail... the choice is in the hand~ my point is… this will be a stressful year and I’ll be needing this blog to come clean… typical old me huh? Afraid of stepping up and speak my mind out loud… I’m too soft… argh!!! I hate it!!!
I think that’s enough for the time being… at least enough to make me stop thinking of quitting~

And hey, I’ll be posting some LIMITED big events that were happening IN MY LIFE for the past 8 months… this is a promise...