the ending~

14th May 2010…
Finally~
end of internship…
There was no farewell party… and there were too little goodbyes~

But I don’t care…
I went there… joined the muster for the last time… and I straight away went to the office to settle whatever things left…
I went back to the housing estate… continued packing my stuffs… and I was ready to go…
But as usual, transportation is the main problem so I have to wait until 11am before I leave the camp…

While waiting… the 6 months experiences flashed back…
To be honest, I’ll be missing Minat Teguh Palm Oil Mill(MTPOM)…
There were so many things happened while I was there… and they taught me the lessons of life…

I got to know more about people and I’ve learnt how to deal with people…
I’ve learnt that there is an extent to which we are allowed to be close with someone…
I’ve learnt that we have our own path of life and not all people are lucky as we are…
I’ve learnt that giving up easily is a taboo…
I’ve learnt that we are from the same root… titles are temporary… what really matters is our manners...
I’ve learnt how to be professional…
I’ve learnt that our best friends could be the one backstabbing us…
I’ve learnt that superiority could leads to unhealthy competition…
I’ve learnt not to be selfish…
I’ve learnt to be independent…
I’ve learnt a lot…

Thanks MTPOM for the lessons!!!

everything happens for a reason... but what it is?

okaylah...

did the presentation last thursday...
actually it was hell... but i'm getting over it slowly...
maybe my slides were not good - i didnt have pictures...
but to say that I've not prepared at all... HELL WRONG!!!
i could answer all questions given to the previous student...
and i was expecting to have the same grueling Q n A session...
however, the moment they asked me to skip half of my presentation... i was morally down...
and guess what? there were no questions...
and i was the only 1!!!!
that really made me feel something was wrong~

then i started to blame the student before me...
if only he did not 'steal' my presentation... well actually he did his internship in a palm oil mill too... and claimed to be assigned with the maintenance team...
if so, then what he was presenting was totally out as it was all about the processes...
which should be done by ME!!!
it did not just affected him, but me as well!
lucky i still have laboratory in my hand...
i am a big fan of doing Plan B after all... lol~

but i cannot blame him actually...
everything happens for a reason and we just have to learn to accept it...
something better might come out very soon... or not~



p/s - i did succeed on peeping my marks... for every criteria, none of them got half of the total marks... sucks man!!!

i'm back

isn't it funny?
due to bad internet connection... i often draft my entry in Words...
and when i go back home for weekends, i just need to upload them...
but i didn't...
maybe i've lost a small portion of my self-bravery when it comes to blogging...
or have i lost the interest to share my feelings?
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ok... i dont think so... i'm quite a publicist in some ways though i might not appear like 1... and this is the medium... so... i'll keep on blogging~
be it some informative entries of just some craps... i dont care~

p/s - i'm going to upload 2 - 3 entries by tomorrow...

environment activist at 6.05am

Tiada salah kalau kita menjaga kebersihan persekitaran rumah kita… that’s a good practice afterall. The only problem is when it is done at the WRONG time!!!

Come on lah~ timbang rasa sikit… pagi2 lagi buat hal sudah… I know I have no right to interfere but I do think it’s a little crossing the line…

Pakcik, you know well jiran pakcik tu kerja shift pagi this week…and it was 6.05am and you came, throwing tantrum… pakcik, 6.05am!! it’s late, TOO late~ (*orang muda, mau buat macam mana?memang liat bangun pagi) dia tengah mandi, kenapa mau kacau??? Suruh keluar and bersihkan longkang??? Pakcik mabuk ka?



I know pakcik tidak sanggup lagi kena marah ngan employer kan? Tapi that’s not the way… Nampak sangat pakcik hipokrit and tidak ikhlas… kenapa? Sebab before this, pakcik tidak pernah bising2 pasal longkang… sampai tahap tersumbat and berbau pun pakcik buat bodoh jak kan? Tapi once saman dikeluarkan, notis untuk halau keluar dari rumah dikeluarkan… baru pakcik mengelabah… Apa kes?? And what’s funny… pakcik tu rumah tengah… takkanlah mau bersihkan longkang part rumah pakcik saja? Nonsense!!memang sah2 itu 1 tindakan yang BODOH!! Air tetap juga akan masuk ke longkang kawasan pakcik… jadi pakcik jangan mau salahkan orang lain…



Cuba pakcik timing betul2… after 3pm kan dorang habis shift dah… cuba approach time tu and minta kerjasama dorang untuk sama2 clear out mana2 yang tersumbat ka, cuci mana yang kotor ka… kan senang???ataupun buat 1 informal meeting untuk bincang pasal pembersihan longkang ni… kalau setiap rumah ditugaskan setiap hari pun rasanya tidak jadi masalah… I can guarantee it will only take max 10minutes to do it… Pakcik jangan takutlah rumah sebelah tidak mau cooperate sebab 1 kilang tau macam mana budak2 yang tinggal sana RAJIN!!! And baik hati, and menghormati orang yang lebih tua~ btw pakcik, please bagitau anak pakcik kalau mau berak di rumah orang, please do it properly… bukan lepas buang tidak mau flush… pastu biarkan sisa2 tu bertaburan atas lantai tandas… bertamadun sikitla…

*even kucing pun tau berak BERSOPAN~

See??? Settle 1 problem without bising2 awal pagi yang menganggu ketenteraman orang lain sehinggakan pakcik diumpat oleh para pekerja sepanjang perjalanan ke kilang…

i'm a goat????

consider this scenario...

a sample of palm oil is to be determine its FFA value.
Mr. A did the testing and he get a value of 4.99.
Mr. B did the testing and he get a value of 4.94.
Mr. C did the testing and he get a value of 4.78.
4.78 is just enough to release the tanker...



but when the oil reached to the customer and FFA testing is done once again, they get a value of 5.04....
there you go... 4.99, 4.94, 4.78 and 5.04
you do the maths and tell me which one is the odd one...
the oil DOESNT cheat!!!
but we, human... DO!!!
and please stop looking for a scapegoat...
you're seasoned... it's not so professional to seek for a way out (in a negative way) instead of discussing how to overcome the problem...
i just hate it...
especially when i am the scapegoat...
damn it!!

ok... maybe i'm the one who's being paranoid all the time...
but i just can't help it...
the way you speak clearly shows that i am the one who should be blame...
is it wrong to WRITE WHAT WE DO AND GET??
you're such a pathetic hypocrite LOSER!!!!
well thanks to you I lost my respect for you!

INTERNSHIP

the title said it... INTERNSHIP~
well I've gotten myself a spot in IJM Plantation Bhd and was 'thrown' to Minat Teguh Palm Oil Mill (MTPOM)...
the moment i arrived at the entrance gate... i knew that my life will be a total misery... especially when i was told that it takes roughly 9km to reach the housing estate(and approx. 3km to the mill)...
there was no network coverage...
which means i'll be lost in contact... and my broadband will be useless!!!
luckily it was just temporary..
but still, 3 bars of signal really doesn't show a good sign to me...
and i have to rely on the unstable gprs line for online purpose... it sucks man!!

well, the first week of internship was totally messed up... i ended up wandering off with no direction as if i were abandoned(or should i say I AM ABANDONED?)
but everything changed after two weeks when i finally got my training schedule... honestly, the content are more to LEARNING and not WORKING...
how am i supposed to apply theories i've learnt?
but looking on the bright side, at least i have direction now...

my life?seriously... worst than my boarding school year... i have no television!i have to admit that i'm not a tv-guy and it doesnt really bothered me if i have none, except for this situation... or maybe i was just looking for excuses to avoid staying there?i was so desperate up to the point where i have no regret at all spending my money to book a room in town for 1 day!worthy? NOT AT ALL!!!and being an introvert guy i am, i wasnt good in making friends... but i have a few to talk to anyway...

did i mentioned i have to wake up early in the morning everyday? well i have to be at the assembly point on 6.30am to attend the morning muster... without a doubt... that is one of the hardest thing to do considering how all-nighter i am... duh~

i got more in my closet actually but since this is just the introductory part, let it be this short(is it???)... more to come...