the ending~

14th May 2010…
Finally~
end of internship…
There was no farewell party… and there were too little goodbyes~

But I don’t care…
I went there… joined the muster for the last time… and I straight away went to the office to settle whatever things left…
I went back to the housing estate… continued packing my stuffs… and I was ready to go…
But as usual, transportation is the main problem so I have to wait until 11am before I leave the camp…

While waiting… the 6 months experiences flashed back…
To be honest, I’ll be missing Minat Teguh Palm Oil Mill(MTPOM)…
There were so many things happened while I was there… and they taught me the lessons of life…

I got to know more about people and I’ve learnt how to deal with people…
I’ve learnt that there is an extent to which we are allowed to be close with someone…
I’ve learnt that we have our own path of life and not all people are lucky as we are…
I’ve learnt that giving up easily is a taboo…
I’ve learnt that we are from the same root… titles are temporary… what really matters is our manners...
I’ve learnt how to be professional…
I’ve learnt that our best friends could be the one backstabbing us…
I’ve learnt that superiority could leads to unhealthy competition…
I’ve learnt not to be selfish…
I’ve learnt to be independent…
I’ve learnt a lot…

Thanks MTPOM for the lessons!!!

everything happens for a reason... but what it is?

okaylah...

did the presentation last thursday...
actually it was hell... but i'm getting over it slowly...
maybe my slides were not good - i didnt have pictures...
but to say that I've not prepared at all... HELL WRONG!!!
i could answer all questions given to the previous student...
and i was expecting to have the same grueling Q n A session...
however, the moment they asked me to skip half of my presentation... i was morally down...
and guess what? there were no questions...
and i was the only 1!!!!
that really made me feel something was wrong~

then i started to blame the student before me...
if only he did not 'steal' my presentation... well actually he did his internship in a palm oil mill too... and claimed to be assigned with the maintenance team...
if so, then what he was presenting was totally out as it was all about the processes...
which should be done by ME!!!
it did not just affected him, but me as well!
lucky i still have laboratory in my hand...
i am a big fan of doing Plan B after all... lol~

but i cannot blame him actually...
everything happens for a reason and we just have to learn to accept it...
something better might come out very soon... or not~



p/s - i did succeed on peeping my marks... for every criteria, none of them got half of the total marks... sucks man!!!

how we judged people

Tell me what’s your speculation when you :
Scenario 1 -see two hot good-looking guys walking together?
Scenario 2 - see a boyish girl holding hand with a sexy chick?
Don’t fake it… nowadays most of us will answer these…
Scenario 1 – they are GAY!!!
Scenario 2 – LESBIAN!!!
And sometimes… both answers end up with a disgusting “EURGH~” or maybe to begin with… or… “wow! that’s hot~” perhaps?
Now tell me what’s your speculation when you :
Scenario 3 – see two ordinary stereotype guys walking together?
Scenario 4 – see two lady-like girls walking hand in hand in public?
I bet most of us will answer this…
Scenario 3 and 4 - … is there anything wrong with that?

Those are just some examples how we, Malaysians especially the youngsters interpret things~
New generations always condemn the veterans… saying that they are too narrow-minded…
But the truth is, we are in the same league…
We judge people by their looks…
We never know whether those guys and girls in Scenario 1 and 2 are really homosexual if we don’t know them WELL…
And we never know those guys and girls in Scenario 3 and 4 are straight…

So now, I’m asking a question…
Are we doing fair here??
If we don’t want people to judge us, why should we judge others?


p/s – wondering what is the difference between the terms GAY, HOMOSEXUAL, LESBIAN, PENGKID~

i'm back

isn't it funny?
due to bad internet connection... i often draft my entry in Words...
and when i go back home for weekends, i just need to upload them...
but i didn't...
maybe i've lost a small portion of my self-bravery when it comes to blogging...
or have i lost the interest to share my feelings?
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ok... i dont think so... i'm quite a publicist in some ways though i might not appear like 1... and this is the medium... so... i'll keep on blogging~
be it some informative entries of just some craps... i dont care~

p/s - i'm going to upload 2 - 3 entries by tomorrow...

environment activist at 6.05am

Tiada salah kalau kita menjaga kebersihan persekitaran rumah kita… that’s a good practice afterall. The only problem is when it is done at the WRONG time!!!

Come on lah~ timbang rasa sikit… pagi2 lagi buat hal sudah… I know I have no right to interfere but I do think it’s a little crossing the line…

Pakcik, you know well jiran pakcik tu kerja shift pagi this week…and it was 6.05am and you came, throwing tantrum… pakcik, 6.05am!! it’s late, TOO late~ (*orang muda, mau buat macam mana?memang liat bangun pagi) dia tengah mandi, kenapa mau kacau??? Suruh keluar and bersihkan longkang??? Pakcik mabuk ka?



I know pakcik tidak sanggup lagi kena marah ngan employer kan? Tapi that’s not the way… Nampak sangat pakcik hipokrit and tidak ikhlas… kenapa? Sebab before this, pakcik tidak pernah bising2 pasal longkang… sampai tahap tersumbat and berbau pun pakcik buat bodoh jak kan? Tapi once saman dikeluarkan, notis untuk halau keluar dari rumah dikeluarkan… baru pakcik mengelabah… Apa kes?? And what’s funny… pakcik tu rumah tengah… takkanlah mau bersihkan longkang part rumah pakcik saja? Nonsense!!memang sah2 itu 1 tindakan yang BODOH!! Air tetap juga akan masuk ke longkang kawasan pakcik… jadi pakcik jangan mau salahkan orang lain…



Cuba pakcik timing betul2… after 3pm kan dorang habis shift dah… cuba approach time tu and minta kerjasama dorang untuk sama2 clear out mana2 yang tersumbat ka, cuci mana yang kotor ka… kan senang???ataupun buat 1 informal meeting untuk bincang pasal pembersihan longkang ni… kalau setiap rumah ditugaskan setiap hari pun rasanya tidak jadi masalah… I can guarantee it will only take max 10minutes to do it… Pakcik jangan takutlah rumah sebelah tidak mau cooperate sebab 1 kilang tau macam mana budak2 yang tinggal sana RAJIN!!! And baik hati, and menghormati orang yang lebih tua~ btw pakcik, please bagitau anak pakcik kalau mau berak di rumah orang, please do it properly… bukan lepas buang tidak mau flush… pastu biarkan sisa2 tu bertaburan atas lantai tandas… bertamadun sikitla…

*even kucing pun tau berak BERSOPAN~

See??? Settle 1 problem without bising2 awal pagi yang menganggu ketenteraman orang lain sehinggakan pakcik diumpat oleh para pekerja sepanjang perjalanan ke kilang…

to help or not to help?

*this entry should be posted on thursday but due to connection problem... i only managed to post it today~duh~

I’ll be moving out again for the third time… this time, I’ll be living next to Tracy Visperas Zembrano and Ronald, the Pinoys duo… whatever… lucky me accommodation is provided FOC… though it is not much different when compared to squatters, but who cares?? It’s not like I’ll be here forever… 1 month plus to go~ and I do believe I’ll be able to hold on until then…

I was quite angry this morning…
It’s not like I don’t want to throw the rubbish… but I believe the owner is still in perfect condition… no need to be helped but yet?? He’s so wrong if he think I’ll enslaved myself for him FOREVER… it’s not that I have lost the sense of courtesy but I’ve helped him so much… SO MUCH and what do I get? NOTHING but a BACKSTABBING! And of course… a ruined, approved(by mill manager) flowchart of mine which I’ve spend almost 1 month to complete it… what a way to pay huh?



ever read or heard the story of a caterpillar… one kind person helped it when evolving into a butterfly… but in the end, the butterfly can’t fly, and eventually die… moral of the story? You tell me… the same thing applies to my situation… if I were to help him in everything, he’ll never learn!! I’m glad that the other guy understood… but this 1 is really headstrong…



my only way to handle this type of ungrateful person is simply by neglecting them… but he labeled me as a snobbish person and I hate it!!! I HATE IT! And I bet he’s been spreading wrong facts about me already… not to forget using my name to cover all his doings… I’m not being paranoid here… but the girls in the canteen already told me how he used my name… damn it!!! Though it might be a trifling matter… but that’s scary… if he has the gut to use our name, there’s a chance he’ll be using our name again for other matter… how worst is that?



I just hope that I can’t still maintain my composure… hopefully~

Oops… before I forgot, Masitah and I saw two guys kissing in public while waiting to punch out our punch cards… lol~ get a room guys~

i'm a goat????

consider this scenario...

a sample of palm oil is to be determine its FFA value.
Mr. A did the testing and he get a value of 4.99.
Mr. B did the testing and he get a value of 4.94.
Mr. C did the testing and he get a value of 4.78.
4.78 is just enough to release the tanker...



but when the oil reached to the customer and FFA testing is done once again, they get a value of 5.04....
there you go... 4.99, 4.94, 4.78 and 5.04
you do the maths and tell me which one is the odd one...
the oil DOESNT cheat!!!
but we, human... DO!!!
and please stop looking for a scapegoat...
you're seasoned... it's not so professional to seek for a way out (in a negative way) instead of discussing how to overcome the problem...
i just hate it...
especially when i am the scapegoat...
damn it!!

ok... maybe i'm the one who's being paranoid all the time...
but i just can't help it...
the way you speak clearly shows that i am the one who should be blame...
is it wrong to WRITE WHAT WE DO AND GET??
you're such a pathetic hypocrite LOSER!!!!
well thanks to you I lost my respect for you!

wake up calls

Currently on sulking mood…
Not going to the lab for 3 days…
I’ll blog about it later…

Yesterday, when I was waiting to punch out my punch card, I bumped into kak Fatimah and uncle rustin… kak Fatimah asked me which U I’m attending… she thought I was from unitar or uitm… she n uncle rustin joined forces to give me some wakeup calls…

Kak Fatimah : randy, kadang2 kita belajar tinggi2, tapi kalo rezeki kita tiada, tidak juga kita dapat kerja bagus2 tu… macam akak la… akak tidakla blajar tinggi mana… stakat lepasan diploma jak tp kerja jadi security… adik abang akak ada yg stpm, spm tp lg berjaya dari akak…jadi kalo bole nanti bila mau cari kerja jangan pilih kerja…

UncleRustin : ada tu anak buah saya… lepasan U… law… tp sampai sekarang tiada kerja… last2 dia ambil juga position manager estate… tp dia still usaha cari kerja sebab dia btul2 mau jadi peguam… jadi kita belajar dari orangla… nanti kalo kau jadi macam tu pun, buat juga macam tu… sementara kau cari kerja yg betul2 kau mau, ambil dulu peluang yang ada… cukup la mau cover hidup sementara… sampai bila mau ibu bapa tanggung kan?

I was just like... wow~
this life is not always as beautiful as we thought it would be...
Now planning for my future… hopefully everything will be just fine…