i'm a goat????

consider this scenario...

a sample of palm oil is to be determine its FFA value.
Mr. A did the testing and he get a value of 4.99.
Mr. B did the testing and he get a value of 4.94.
Mr. C did the testing and he get a value of 4.78.
4.78 is just enough to release the tanker...



but when the oil reached to the customer and FFA testing is done once again, they get a value of 5.04....
there you go... 4.99, 4.94, 4.78 and 5.04
you do the maths and tell me which one is the odd one...
the oil DOESNT cheat!!!
but we, human... DO!!!
and please stop looking for a scapegoat...
you're seasoned... it's not so professional to seek for a way out (in a negative way) instead of discussing how to overcome the problem...
i just hate it...
especially when i am the scapegoat...
damn it!!

ok... maybe i'm the one who's being paranoid all the time...
but i just can't help it...
the way you speak clearly shows that i am the one who should be blame...
is it wrong to WRITE WHAT WE DO AND GET??
you're such a pathetic hypocrite LOSER!!!!
well thanks to you I lost my respect for you!

wake up calls

Currently on sulking mood…
Not going to the lab for 3 days…
I’ll blog about it later…

Yesterday, when I was waiting to punch out my punch card, I bumped into kak Fatimah and uncle rustin… kak Fatimah asked me which U I’m attending… she thought I was from unitar or uitm… she n uncle rustin joined forces to give me some wakeup calls…

Kak Fatimah : randy, kadang2 kita belajar tinggi2, tapi kalo rezeki kita tiada, tidak juga kita dapat kerja bagus2 tu… macam akak la… akak tidakla blajar tinggi mana… stakat lepasan diploma jak tp kerja jadi security… adik abang akak ada yg stpm, spm tp lg berjaya dari akak…jadi kalo bole nanti bila mau cari kerja jangan pilih kerja…

UncleRustin : ada tu anak buah saya… lepasan U… law… tp sampai sekarang tiada kerja… last2 dia ambil juga position manager estate… tp dia still usaha cari kerja sebab dia btul2 mau jadi peguam… jadi kita belajar dari orangla… nanti kalo kau jadi macam tu pun, buat juga macam tu… sementara kau cari kerja yg betul2 kau mau, ambil dulu peluang yang ada… cukup la mau cover hidup sementara… sampai bila mau ibu bapa tanggung kan?

I was just like... wow~
this life is not always as beautiful as we thought it would be...
Now planning for my future… hopefully everything will be just fine…

INTERNSHIP

the title said it... INTERNSHIP~
well I've gotten myself a spot in IJM Plantation Bhd and was 'thrown' to Minat Teguh Palm Oil Mill (MTPOM)...
the moment i arrived at the entrance gate... i knew that my life will be a total misery... especially when i was told that it takes roughly 9km to reach the housing estate(and approx. 3km to the mill)...
there was no network coverage...
which means i'll be lost in contact... and my broadband will be useless!!!
luckily it was just temporary..
but still, 3 bars of signal really doesn't show a good sign to me...
and i have to rely on the unstable gprs line for online purpose... it sucks man!!

well, the first week of internship was totally messed up... i ended up wandering off with no direction as if i were abandoned(or should i say I AM ABANDONED?)
but everything changed after two weeks when i finally got my training schedule... honestly, the content are more to LEARNING and not WORKING...
how am i supposed to apply theories i've learnt?
but looking on the bright side, at least i have direction now...

my life?seriously... worst than my boarding school year... i have no television!i have to admit that i'm not a tv-guy and it doesnt really bothered me if i have none, except for this situation... or maybe i was just looking for excuses to avoid staying there?i was so desperate up to the point where i have no regret at all spending my money to book a room in town for 1 day!worthy? NOT AT ALL!!!and being an introvert guy i am, i wasnt good in making friends... but i have a few to talk to anyway...

did i mentioned i have to wake up early in the morning everyday? well i have to be at the assembly point on 6.30am to attend the morning muster... without a doubt... that is one of the hardest thing to do considering how all-nighter i am... duh~

i got more in my closet actually but since this is just the introductory part, let it be this short(is it???)... more to come...