my story part 1

28th January 2010...
the day when everything went SO FUCKING WRONG!!!
it all started as early as when I tried to get a cab...
that uncle 1st stated that everything has been arranged... but when I'm ready, I called him once again to re-confirm...
and guess what?
"aiya... itu 1006 suda kluar o... u cari taxi lain..."
luckily Cepot gave me 2 contact numbers... and I did get a cab... at 2pm...
having the faith that there'll be a bus directly to Sg. Nibong, I'm optimist that I'll be on time... well actually I'm pretty confident of it because the person that told me that has been using that bus...
however, when I arrived at the terminal, I'd sensed something wrong...
true to my hunch, there were no bus...
I made up my mind to take the same cab to Butterworth...
supposedly, everything went fine and in time... but what the hell? this driver stopped for another customer... to make it worst, he prioritized the latter customer when it SHOULD BE ME!!!
next thing - I was detained from proceeding to the ferry by this guard... damn!!! there were 5 of us... all with luggages... but mine was the biggest... but why detained only me? why let the other through? and I wonder... do they really do that? As far as I could remember, they usually will just let us through... I've been there with larger luggage... or am I really have that stereotype criminal-looks on my face? or was it my behaviours that lead to suspicion??? (what can I do afterall??? i was in a hurry~)
and due to that... I miss the ferry by mere seconds... it was so frustrating when the gate is closing and there's nothing much you can do besides shouting, begging them to wait for you...
by that time... I already knew that my flight will be a waste...
long story short, I did missed the flight... theoretically, I didn't... but technically, it was less than 10minutes before departure...
I could wait for the next flight which is the day after or wait for the earliest MAS flight at higher price...
but I chose the odd 1... I made up my mind to go KL... it was sure a rush to Penang Sentral...
next challenge - all bus were occupied...
than there was this one person... offering bus at 10pm... I grabbed the ticket considering how desperate I was...
when I thought everything was over... the bus was not there until 10pm....



oh no... I am too tired to keep on typing... so I'll make the 2nd part of my story later on when I come back again... maybe 5 days from now... keep waiting~

one night in my room

wake up this morning with mixed feelings...
but more to annoyed...
a little bit dizzy... an indicator of how sleep deprived i am...
and i started to blame that 'someone'...
how can you be so selfish???
you came into my room... and you make noises as you wish...
dont you see how i was trying to get a sleep??? or you would rather see me giving a slap to your face??? i wonder~
yes... it's a public holiday the day after...
but that doesnt mean that i have to sleep late... why put misery to yourself when it's as crystal clear that you can take it anymore? that's what i called STUPID!!!
now the only reason why i didnt speak up was because you are my friend (it's hard to admit though)... but you are way too much...
i really hold back yesterday because i dont want to cause a scene...
but that's it...
last night was the last one...
try me again n let see where it lead us...
*hint : i'm not a physical-thingy guy...

fyp : off-topic

do you ever feel like "i know it's not my problem and i should stay away from it... but damn!!! that's just disturbing me!!!"
i do... all the time~

SOME people around me babbled about their FYP (*read FYP = Final Year Project)...
about how their progress is halted due to some reasons... and how they are worried for not being able to finish it on time...

duh~ like i care???

for me... how could you say you are worried when your action showed the other way round? when you are worried... you'll be busy moving here and there... meeting up your SV or co-SV like almost every seconds whenever possible... not just being idle and babbling of how worried you are~ you have time to sleep MORE than you should have when some of us are sacrificing ours... you have more time to do something which is totally nonsense... you still can make fun or look down at people who's struggling to get theirs done, yet you still babble... dont you think it is kind of reversal here?we are the one who SHOULD complaint!!!

and i hate the idea of taking other people as a scapegoat to hide the guilt inside you... you expect your SV or co-SV to be there for you 24/7... you expect them to solve EVERYTHING for you when you could use some of your POVs instead of relying on them (*afterall this is what you are going to do... you have the words too)... and when they failed to meet your expectation... you blamed them...

err... i think you've forgotten something here... they are ALL human being!!! they can't be there for you the whole time... and guess what? they have MUCH better and IMPORTANT things to do other than helping you free-riders!!!

well, i'm not saying these to any particular person... in fact, this goes to myself as well... as a reminder to do work mutually with my SV and co-SV... though i know i may be lacking in most parts and unconsciously fit to some of the 'bad things' i've been crapping above... but i told ot myself... at least i'm a step better than these GROUP of people because i showed some efforts... PERIOD~

Happy New Year 2011

it is now 2011...
but nothing much has changed...
well to be honest, I dont really believe in new year resolution...so dont ask mine~thank you...
because i know, most of the time, the resolution will not be achieved...
dont get me wrong... i dont go against the idea of having some...
at least it reminds us to put some efforts to everything we do...
but it's quite annoying when we make such grand resolution but in the end, ended with nothing...
and, do we need to wait until new year to change something for good?
come on~ 1 year is too long!!!
life is too short... we'll never know when the time is up... and by then, it's too late to regret everything...
so why dont change everything for good from time to time?
that sounds better~