one night in my room

wake up this morning with mixed feelings...
but more to annoyed...
a little bit dizzy... an indicator of how sleep deprived i am...
and i started to blame that 'someone'...
how can you be so selfish???
you came into my room... and you make noises as you wish...
dont you see how i was trying to get a sleep??? or you would rather see me giving a slap to your face??? i wonder~
yes... it's a public holiday the day after...
but that doesnt mean that i have to sleep late... why put misery to yourself when it's as crystal clear that you can take it anymore? that's what i called STUPID!!!
now the only reason why i didnt speak up was because you are my friend (it's hard to admit though)... but you are way too much...
i really hold back yesterday because i dont want to cause a scene...
but that's it...
last night was the last one...
try me again n let see where it lead us...
*hint : i'm not a physical-thingy guy...

fyp : off-topic

do you ever feel like "i know it's not my problem and i should stay away from it... but damn!!! that's just disturbing me!!!"
i do... all the time~

SOME people around me babbled about their FYP (*read FYP = Final Year Project)...
about how their progress is halted due to some reasons... and how they are worried for not being able to finish it on time...

duh~ like i care???

for me... how could you say you are worried when your action showed the other way round? when you are worried... you'll be busy moving here and there... meeting up your SV or co-SV like almost every seconds whenever possible... not just being idle and babbling of how worried you are~ you have time to sleep MORE than you should have when some of us are sacrificing ours... you have more time to do something which is totally nonsense... you still can make fun or look down at people who's struggling to get theirs done, yet you still babble... dont you think it is kind of reversal here?we are the one who SHOULD complaint!!!

and i hate the idea of taking other people as a scapegoat to hide the guilt inside you... you expect your SV or co-SV to be there for you 24/7... you expect them to solve EVERYTHING for you when you could use some of your POVs instead of relying on them (*afterall this is what you are going to do... you have the words too)... and when they failed to meet your expectation... you blamed them...

err... i think you've forgotten something here... they are ALL human being!!! they can't be there for you the whole time... and guess what? they have MUCH better and IMPORTANT things to do other than helping you free-riders!!!

well, i'm not saying these to any particular person... in fact, this goes to myself as well... as a reminder to do work mutually with my SV and co-SV... though i know i may be lacking in most parts and unconsciously fit to some of the 'bad things' i've been crapping above... but i told ot myself... at least i'm a step better than these GROUP of people because i showed some efforts... PERIOD~

Happy New Year 2011

it is now 2011...
but nothing much has changed...
well to be honest, I dont really believe in new year resolution...so dont ask mine~thank you...
because i know, most of the time, the resolution will not be achieved...
dont get me wrong... i dont go against the idea of having some...
at least it reminds us to put some efforts to everything we do...
but it's quite annoying when we make such grand resolution but in the end, ended with nothing...
and, do we need to wait until new year to change something for good?
come on~ 1 year is too long!!!
life is too short... we'll never know when the time is up... and by then, it's too late to regret everything...
so why dont change everything for good from time to time?
that sounds better~

woah!!!!
finally a new update from me...
just re-activated my celcom broadband...
which mean i can post more updates from now on~

sporty bonding

i love sports...
i've realized it long time ago...
sports connect us...
it knows no boundaries...
political conflicts???? they can directly go to hell!!!

let's take a smaller view...

i was away from UniMAP for more than 6 months to do my internship...
during that period, the tennis team has been established and lots of new faces came to join...
so when i came back... there's only few faces i'm familiar with... Muna, Shuhud, Libren, Conlathan... the rest??? negative~
but through sports... which is obviously tennis... we are bonding...
and the culmination would be during the Phuket Trip... everyone mixed very well together...
and now, we are 1 new happy family... care for each other... isn't it a nice thing sports can do???

so what are you waiting for??? pick any sports to indulge yourself into... and you get to lead a healthy life as a bonus~
:)

there is a man in an island... with reasons~

how does it feels when people keeps pestering you over certain things???
ANNOYING and I feel like smashing their faces to the wall!!!
so please stop doing that!!!

by the way, I have a lot in pocket, waiting to be published but it seems I'm a little bit 'weak' when it comes to narrating those stories in term of words when I'm in no mood~ lame~~~~

now people always said that I'm snobbish...
I'm over with that type of accusation long time ago...
but truth be told... I'm offended~
you dont know me!!!
is it necessary to say I'm a man in an island???


*i dont owned the pic... just grab randomly from the net~


how will you react if I confess the real reason why I've been acting that way???
I do have my own comfort personal space and I HATE people overcrossing that line!!!
I've learnt how to be independent in some ways so I HATE people when they depend 100% on me!!!
I am a sensitive guy and I HATE irrational jokes especially when it comes to my races, my cultures and my hometown (I didnt include religion because I dont want to cause any problems - that's a common sense everyone SHOULD know!!!)
and I HATE you when you tried to poison my mind with your no class mentality about other races...

the list could go on and on but I think I'll stop at that point...
if you are good enough (well I remembered vividly how proud you were when you claimed that) you know what I mean from this post...
CHANGE!!!

1st in august

1st in august...
and what's that supposed to mean????

DAMN BUSY!!!

we have this Synthesis & Process Design mini project...
well according to my friend at UTP, it is similar to Final Year Design Project for Chem Eng students there.. which is a 'complementary' project aside from the FYP~
and ALL Chem Eng students all over Malaysia will have to do the same...
well since we (Bioprocess Eng) are from the root of Chem Eng... we have to face the consequences~

our topic???
Plant Design For The Production Of Biofuel
our progress???
<50%
due date for the 1st submission???
3rd Sept 2010
the due date has been postponed for a week but still... it's a time issue for all of us..
we have midterms waiting... GMP's PBL...another mini project(waste treatment) that yet to commence, and the main agenda - FYP!!!

great~ a 'nice' workloads for the final year students!!!



p/s - we are granted equal time of 24hrs/day... but its never enough especially for students like us... it's very hard to well-manage our time... we are more determine to spend our time doing things we like... that appears to be nonsense when compared to our education... what to do???