how we judged people

Tell me what’s your speculation when you :
Scenario 1 -see two hot good-looking guys walking together?
Scenario 2 - see a boyish girl holding hand with a sexy chick?
Don’t fake it… nowadays most of us will answer these…
Scenario 1 – they are GAY!!!
Scenario 2 – LESBIAN!!!
And sometimes… both answers end up with a disgusting “EURGH~” or maybe to begin with… or… “wow! that’s hot~” perhaps?
Now tell me what’s your speculation when you :
Scenario 3 – see two ordinary stereotype guys walking together?
Scenario 4 – see two lady-like girls walking hand in hand in public?
I bet most of us will answer this…
Scenario 3 and 4 - … is there anything wrong with that?

Those are just some examples how we, Malaysians especially the youngsters interpret things~
New generations always condemn the veterans… saying that they are too narrow-minded…
But the truth is, we are in the same league…
We judge people by their looks…
We never know whether those guys and girls in Scenario 1 and 2 are really homosexual if we don’t know them WELL…
And we never know those guys and girls in Scenario 3 and 4 are straight…

So now, I’m asking a question…
Are we doing fair here??
If we don’t want people to judge us, why should we judge others?


p/s – wondering what is the difference between the terms GAY, HOMOSEXUAL, LESBIAN, PENGKID~

owh don't blame me...
blame the electricity....
but i managed to post 2 entries...
so technically... I've succeeded~

CAKAP TAK SERUPA BIKIN

few weeks ago, saya ada mentioned yang saya akan berpindah lagikan?
well guess what? tak jadi pindah pun... lagipun, minah cleaner yang patut dipindahkan di situ atas masalah peribadi sudah resigned... she got accepted as a Cikgu Sandaran...

few days ago, the Mill Assistant (MA) came to the lab with a form...
so being busybody as i am, i went to him to see what he was doing...
err... there were 3 of us actually... Sylvia, Amour and me...
it was actually the mill accommodation mapping...
he was trying to re-arrange them...

dipendekkan cerita,
ada sorang mamat ni... Junaide... dia tinggal sorang sebab wife n daughter dia tinggal luar... kalo diikutkan, he's not suppposed to have a whole house by himself... and that's why dia SEPATUTNYA dipindahkan ke rumah lain...
but when the MA said that, everybody went silent...
then the MA said, "but it would be troublesome if it is Junaide"
and he added few seconds after that... purposely locking his eyes onto me
"but that's not the matter... if you are asked to move, you SHOULD... admin doesn't want any excuses..."

hello???
kalo tak puas ati, cakap...
before this, i personally went to him and said that IF POSSIBLE, I don't want to move until 14/5... and i said IF POSSIBLE... but he didn't say anything and just nodded...
so why only now he said that to me?
i don't think i have done anything wrong... i still remember when i first came there... he said "NO, YOU SHOULD ASK FOR IT... THAT'S YOUR RIGHT"
well according to the mill management, trainees will be given 1 house...
so why asked me to move out and share with other people when i have that privilege? isn't it violating my right?
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one answer...
CAKAP TAK SERUPA BIKIN!!!

i'm back

isn't it funny?
due to bad internet connection... i often draft my entry in Words...
and when i go back home for weekends, i just need to upload them...
but i didn't...
maybe i've lost a small portion of my self-bravery when it comes to blogging...
or have i lost the interest to share my feelings?
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ok... i dont think so... i'm quite a publicist in some ways though i might not appear like 1... and this is the medium... so... i'll keep on blogging~
be it some informative entries of just some craps... i dont care~

p/s - i'm going to upload 2 - 3 entries by tomorrow...

environment activist at 6.05am

Tiada salah kalau kita menjaga kebersihan persekitaran rumah kita… that’s a good practice afterall. The only problem is when it is done at the WRONG time!!!

Come on lah~ timbang rasa sikit… pagi2 lagi buat hal sudah… I know I have no right to interfere but I do think it’s a little crossing the line…

Pakcik, you know well jiran pakcik tu kerja shift pagi this week…and it was 6.05am and you came, throwing tantrum… pakcik, 6.05am!! it’s late, TOO late~ (*orang muda, mau buat macam mana?memang liat bangun pagi) dia tengah mandi, kenapa mau kacau??? Suruh keluar and bersihkan longkang??? Pakcik mabuk ka?



I know pakcik tidak sanggup lagi kena marah ngan employer kan? Tapi that’s not the way… Nampak sangat pakcik hipokrit and tidak ikhlas… kenapa? Sebab before this, pakcik tidak pernah bising2 pasal longkang… sampai tahap tersumbat and berbau pun pakcik buat bodoh jak kan? Tapi once saman dikeluarkan, notis untuk halau keluar dari rumah dikeluarkan… baru pakcik mengelabah… Apa kes?? And what’s funny… pakcik tu rumah tengah… takkanlah mau bersihkan longkang part rumah pakcik saja? Nonsense!!memang sah2 itu 1 tindakan yang BODOH!! Air tetap juga akan masuk ke longkang kawasan pakcik… jadi pakcik jangan mau salahkan orang lain…



Cuba pakcik timing betul2… after 3pm kan dorang habis shift dah… cuba approach time tu and minta kerjasama dorang untuk sama2 clear out mana2 yang tersumbat ka, cuci mana yang kotor ka… kan senang???ataupun buat 1 informal meeting untuk bincang pasal pembersihan longkang ni… kalau setiap rumah ditugaskan setiap hari pun rasanya tidak jadi masalah… I can guarantee it will only take max 10minutes to do it… Pakcik jangan takutlah rumah sebelah tidak mau cooperate sebab 1 kilang tau macam mana budak2 yang tinggal sana RAJIN!!! And baik hati, and menghormati orang yang lebih tua~ btw pakcik, please bagitau anak pakcik kalau mau berak di rumah orang, please do it properly… bukan lepas buang tidak mau flush… pastu biarkan sisa2 tu bertaburan atas lantai tandas… bertamadun sikitla…

*even kucing pun tau berak BERSOPAN~

See??? Settle 1 problem without bising2 awal pagi yang menganggu ketenteraman orang lain sehinggakan pakcik diumpat oleh para pekerja sepanjang perjalanan ke kilang…

pindah rumah lagi

I’ve said it before… I’m going to move out again. This time, I’ll be living with Tracy and Ronald…

MUKTAMAD!!!
Malam ni saya akan pindah… kalau ikutkan hati, memang saya tidak mau pindah… mungkin alasan saya tidak kuat tapi bila kena pindah rumah :

1. Packing barang – walaupun 6 bulan jak tempoh praktikal, surprisingly I have a lot of stuff with me… even some that I haven’t use since the day I came here… got to do something about it but that’s another thing… kalau mau pack, mesti ambil masa… boleh jak kalau main sumbat jak… tapi lain pulak masalah yang timbul nanti… sedangkan saya balik every weekend pun mau packing ambil masa setengah jam… tu baru 3 helai baju, 1 slack n some boxers… kalau packing semua barang???



2. Kemas rumah lama – when you move out, this is the last thing you should do… takkan la mau tinggalkan dalam keadaan yang ala2 sarang babi kan? (walaupun time kami masuk keadaan dia mmg mcm tu… BODOH punya previous orang *cannot say tenant since sewa tidak dibayar~) and of course this will take time and LECEH!!! Kalau tidak buat, nanti kena cakap2 pulak kan? Faham2 jakla keadaan sini macam mana…. Bukan mau look down tapi that’s the fact… I’ll blog about it when I have time…



3. Angkat barang – kau ingat tilam ringan kah? Kalau setakat tilam yang macam sponge tu tidak pa… tp ni yang jenis getah punya… ala2 tilam jenama GETHA time di SMSL and KML dulu…. Oops… di UniMAP pun sama jugak~ tu belum campur kotak2 lagi… beg2 lagi… I wouldn’t mind juga actually kalau sebelah rumah jak… tapi ni sebelah blok!!! Sudahlah saya rumah depan… kena pindah pulak rumah paling belakang di blok sebelah… GREAT!!!



4. Kemas rumah baru – of course!!! Takkan mau tinggal dalam sarang babi kan? Walaupun ala kadar, still akan ambil masa and it’s tiring…

5. Unpack barang – this one saja jak saya masukkan sebagai alasan… actually this is the easiest part of all… hehehe~

6. Panas – yes… PANAS!!! Considering time kami pindah di squatter ni cuma tinggal 2 months saja lagi saya praktikal, I’ve decided not to buy a stand fan… macam membazir and susah mau urus… yala, tempat ni bukan dekat… and transportation is another problem… so kalau da penat and berpeluh2 tu, sah2 akan rasa panas kan? Manusia bila panas, emosi tidak tenteram… rasa macam mau marah jak… kena pulak ngan saya yang memang panas baran… memang hancurla… nanti tidak pasal2 orang lain yang kena carut…



7. Privacy – this one really disturbing… 1 rumah ada 2 bilik. Satu bilik, Tracy. Satu bilik, Ronald. Means I have to sleep outside… well, itu tidak menjadi masalah… tapi ruang tamu tu pusat pertemuan 2 bilik tu… so faham2 jakla… I have no privacy!!! Bukan selfish or tamak, but it’s my habit bila tengok movie dalam lappy, I want to be alone… tapi lepas tu kalo dorang mau tengok, I don’t mind… but how should I translate that into verbal? Susahla… salah cakap, orang terasa pulak… bukan setakat tu jakla… kalau ber’calling’ pun sama juga… no privacy… if I want to sleep early pun, rasa lain juga… call me weird but that’s true!!! Try fitting yourself in my shoe…



Tapi apa boleh buat? Semata-mata untuk kepentingan orang lain, kita terpaksa mengalah… toleransi konon, sampai bila kita jak yang terpaksa mengalah???

to help or not to help?

*this entry should be posted on thursday but due to connection problem... i only managed to post it today~duh~

I’ll be moving out again for the third time… this time, I’ll be living next to Tracy Visperas Zembrano and Ronald, the Pinoys duo… whatever… lucky me accommodation is provided FOC… though it is not much different when compared to squatters, but who cares?? It’s not like I’ll be here forever… 1 month plus to go~ and I do believe I’ll be able to hold on until then…

I was quite angry this morning…
It’s not like I don’t want to throw the rubbish… but I believe the owner is still in perfect condition… no need to be helped but yet?? He’s so wrong if he think I’ll enslaved myself for him FOREVER… it’s not that I have lost the sense of courtesy but I’ve helped him so much… SO MUCH and what do I get? NOTHING but a BACKSTABBING! And of course… a ruined, approved(by mill manager) flowchart of mine which I’ve spend almost 1 month to complete it… what a way to pay huh?



ever read or heard the story of a caterpillar… one kind person helped it when evolving into a butterfly… but in the end, the butterfly can’t fly, and eventually die… moral of the story? You tell me… the same thing applies to my situation… if I were to help him in everything, he’ll never learn!! I’m glad that the other guy understood… but this 1 is really headstrong…



my only way to handle this type of ungrateful person is simply by neglecting them… but he labeled me as a snobbish person and I hate it!!! I HATE IT! And I bet he’s been spreading wrong facts about me already… not to forget using my name to cover all his doings… I’m not being paranoid here… but the girls in the canteen already told me how he used my name… damn it!!! Though it might be a trifling matter… but that’s scary… if he has the gut to use our name, there’s a chance he’ll be using our name again for other matter… how worst is that?



I just hope that I can’t still maintain my composure… hopefully~

Oops… before I forgot, Masitah and I saw two guys kissing in public while waiting to punch out our punch cards… lol~ get a room guys~