a reminder to myself~

keep holding on~
yeah...
fucking absolutely suit me NOW...
i was going to break...
but it's almost 3 years now and i've endured all the obstacles so far..
so I thought to myself...
why now?
and that gave me the spirit to keep holding on...

it's true that we human are very susceptible to giving up...
but we forget something important...
we are not utilizing our self-potential to the fullest...
the only thing we need is the determination and persistence... *please bother to add more if u thing this is lacking~
a little believing in ourselves to boost self-esteem...
and WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS~

so guys...
let's rock!!!!



p/s - sori la... ada yg teda dlm pic ni... sepa suru nda trn begambar aritu... hehe~

exhausted

i let the picture tells the story~



p/s - will not going to be actively updating this blog... at least not until 20th June 2010~

the ending~

14th May 2010…
Finally~
end of internship…
There was no farewell party… and there were too little goodbyes~

But I don’t care…
I went there… joined the muster for the last time… and I straight away went to the office to settle whatever things left…
I went back to the housing estate… continued packing my stuffs… and I was ready to go…
But as usual, transportation is the main problem so I have to wait until 11am before I leave the camp…

While waiting… the 6 months experiences flashed back…
To be honest, I’ll be missing Minat Teguh Palm Oil Mill(MTPOM)…
There were so many things happened while I was there… and they taught me the lessons of life…

I got to know more about people and I’ve learnt how to deal with people…
I’ve learnt that there is an extent to which we are allowed to be close with someone…
I’ve learnt that we have our own path of life and not all people are lucky as we are…
I’ve learnt that giving up easily is a taboo…
I’ve learnt that we are from the same root… titles are temporary… what really matters is our manners...
I’ve learnt how to be professional…
I’ve learnt that our best friends could be the one backstabbing us…
I’ve learnt that superiority could leads to unhealthy competition…
I’ve learnt not to be selfish…
I’ve learnt to be independent…
I’ve learnt a lot…

Thanks MTPOM for the lessons!!!

reluctantly... i came back to MTPOM yesterday...

1. my INTERNSHIP MOOD is WEARING OFF...
2. almost 6 HOURS to reach the destination???
3. i dont have any electric fan...
4. the house is TOO DUSTY no matter HOW HARD i clean it up!!!
5. POOR water QUALITY!!!
6. the people...

argh... the point is... i dont like being here ANYMORE!!!
i really hope the manager will allow me to end my internship earlier...

i still remember you

wow~
i never thought the feeling of being remembered by someone we were not closed with is very refreshing~
i mean, for us to remember someone that we hardly speak with... is just hard... especially when it took years before you start to communicate again...i mean from 2000? that's a long way~
not for the sake of self-boasting...
i personally think that there must be something in whatever i did that really leave marks for them to remember me... right?
be it good or bad, we'll never know...
but we can be sure that if it's bad, the responds would not be so good...
or maybe it's time to turn over a new leaf?
well, even if what we did were bad,
we are getting matured everyday by reflecting what childish things we have done before...
so let's get along now~



p/s - my junior and ex-dormmate, Lyester thanked me last night for some advices... i was(hard to admit) touched somehow~

everything happens for a reason... but what it is?

okaylah...

did the presentation last thursday...
actually it was hell... but i'm getting over it slowly...
maybe my slides were not good - i didnt have pictures...
but to say that I've not prepared at all... HELL WRONG!!!
i could answer all questions given to the previous student...
and i was expecting to have the same grueling Q n A session...
however, the moment they asked me to skip half of my presentation... i was morally down...
and guess what? there were no questions...
and i was the only 1!!!!
that really made me feel something was wrong~

then i started to blame the student before me...
if only he did not 'steal' my presentation... well actually he did his internship in a palm oil mill too... and claimed to be assigned with the maintenance team...
if so, then what he was presenting was totally out as it was all about the processes...
which should be done by ME!!!
it did not just affected him, but me as well!
lucky i still have laboratory in my hand...
i am a big fan of doing Plan B after all... lol~

but i cannot blame him actually...
everything happens for a reason and we just have to learn to accept it...
something better might come out very soon... or not~



p/s - i did succeed on peeping my marks... for every criteria, none of them got half of the total marks... sucks man!!!