berakhir sudah~

I am unofficially done with FYP~
yeay!!!!!!!
but to be at this moment was a hell of hardship....
insufficient sleep... unstable emotions... losing appetite... and i havent played tennis for a while!!!!
but lucky me... everything were worth it!!!
i dont care what grade will I obtain eventually... but I did my best...
so no regret~
in fact, this is the 1st time in my life academic life that I haven't feel any REGRET~
*wow~ how pathetic my student life was

netball

the journey ended yesterday... we were down with 4 matches before we won the last 1... but it was too late to advance to the next round...

but having the opportunity to play netball was amazing!!!
yeah... NETBALL and we are guys~
I know some people out there might still have the taboo about guys playing netball... but here's to clear something... THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH GUYS PLAYING NETBALL!!!
bukannya kita masuk tourney n bertanding dgn perempuan...
bukannya kita main netball, kita kena jadi perempuan*kalo kes2 'lembut2' tu x bole nk cakap pa la... tp itu xda kaitan ngan netball kan?
senang cakap... tiada 1 pun yg berubah kalo kita main netball... unless we ourselves wanted to change... tu da masuk crita lain la~

i was chit-chatting with someone the other day...
dia cakap so far, men netball is not an official sport yet... sebab tu kategori ni x mcm game perempuan... siap ada world championship...
kategori lelaki ni bergantung pd penganjur la... kalo dorang rasa mau buat kategori lelaki utk tourney yg dorg anjur, it's their call...
so I asked why...
then dia jawab "susahlah... ada sesetengah pihak yg x mau sukan netball dibuka kpd lelaki sebab perempuan akan kehilangan 1 1 nya sukan yg di'conquer' oleh perempuan"*ok... something like that

HELLO??? what are we? 12 yo???
in my opinion, it should not be a problem at all!!!
mcm yg saya cakap tadi la... bukannya kita akan main ngan perempuan... kita main ngan lelaki!!!
kalau sukan RUGBY boleh... kenapa tidak netball?
how's that different???

hmm~
ok2... enough with being emo2... nnt hilang pula mood..
I just want to thank all my teammates and the coaches and everyone involved in the tourney...King, Amir, Kurt, Fitri, Kah Kit, Syahir, Along, Kak Ayu, Fyda, Sitah, Zana, UniMAP Bahan, UniMAP Alam Sekitar, UniMAP MASUM, UniMAP Staff n semua yg x ter'list'... well u guys know who u r~ *jgn amik ati plak~ hehehe
you guys gave me another precious experience n memory in life~
hehehehehe~

so here's a treat from me... this is the last match (we won) against Cobra Alpha... *but this is not the full video... King's hp was running out of bat... credit to Zana for helping us to record the vid

**sorry 4 d poor quality.. i'd to compressed almost 300mb vid size to 80mb vid size...

GA - Cheong Kah Kit a.k.a Kah Kit
GS - Muhammad Fitri Salleh a.k.a Fitri
WA - Raja Ahmad Izzat Raja Zazali a.k.a King
C - Myself
WD - Mohd Redzuan Sutimin a.k.a Kurt
GD - Saiful Azam Anuar a.k.a Along
GK - Mohd Amir Idhzuan Johari a.k.a Amir

monolog

me : it's almost the end of the semester...
happy!!!

Q : but wait... how's your FYP going on???











me : DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate it when people ask me that~
fyi, me terpaksa tambah 8 more runs to AT LEAST make my screening acceptable...
aduh!!! just when I thought everything will be fine... taw2 jadi mcm ni...
actually, running the experiment is not my main concern...
the main problem now is...
KENA HANTAR REPORT MINGGU DEPAN!!!
they didnt gave us exact date actually... so that means I can still pass up on Friday, 22th April...
tp mesti nampak "lain" when I'm the only 1 sikit org jak yg hntr Jumaat nnt... kan?
to be honest... I'm optimist that I can get everything done in time...
tp faham2la quality kerja last minute mcm mn kn?
bukan mau ckp slama ni my kerja2 semua berkualiti... NO... but this is not something to be taken lightly...
hello~ FYP kot... slack skit dlm report... bole jadi bahan bukti dlm mahkamah nnt...
*okay... I exaggerated too much~
the main point is... I want to make my thesis as perfect as I could...
after all... sepa yg suka kena tembak time viva kn?
writing the thesis carelessly tu kiranya mcm gali kubur sendiri la... which I dont want!!!
nnt sia2 usaha selama ni... pulun buat exp... lari sna lari sni... berdiri berjam2 smpi kaki rasa mau patah...*more to pinggang ekceli... hehehe~ not having enough sleep sebab stay up mau buat thesis... *tp kalo lyn drama series ok plak kan? oops~ tp bila viva... HANCUR!!!
huhu... I seriously, affirmatively DONT want that!!!











Q : so what are you waiting now???
go back to work!!!!

me : sabarla!!! tgh sieving lagi ni!!!! I want to at least do these today :
1. sieve raw material at least >50g
2. run at least 2 experiment - 1 RUN JER SEBAB TECH PROB... 7 MORE TO COME
3. run as much FT-IR analysis as much as I could *could be more but someone stole some of my time
4. get Chapt 1 n 3 done for good!!! EPIC FAIL!!!
*by 12am... I'll cross out whichever I've done~

cheating

on 1 night after training... I had a conversation with some friends...

have you ever feel so angry and jealous of your classmates when your tests/quizzes/assignments came out with low marks???
1. jealous - because they get higher grades than yours...
2. angry - because they get higher grades in wrong ways = CHEATING aka COPYING

I remember this one really damn well because it was SO CONTRADICTING with my principle back then... it was 2004... a friend once quoted "YOU'RE A TOTAL IDIOT IF YOU DONT CHEAT/COPY WHEN YOU CLEARLY HAVE THE CHANCE"
that was 2004's story...
when I was struggling with my carry marks during my 2nd year of degree... a friend told me what our favourite lecturer told him... "BETTER COPY OTHERS' ASSIGNMENT IF YOU CANNOT FINISH IT ON TIME SO THAT IT WOULD NOT COST YOU YOUR MARKS"(*this is not how the lecturer conveyed the message... but this is what I understood from the conversation... the lecturer might be meaning to tell something else, but you get the point~)
another friend told me how his lecturer used to tell him that "YOU ARE LESS A FOOL IF YOU CHEAT IN YOUR TESTS, BUT YOU ARE AN EXTREME FOOL IF YOU CHEAT, AND GET CAUGHT RED HANDED"

so is it okay to cheat? it's an open-ended question... no answers are right, nor wrong~
it all comes back to INTEGRITY~
but integrity 24/7 wont bring us anywhere... at least that is what I thought...
sometimes, we need to take the back door...
it's easy~ TO KILL, or TO BE KILLED(*I really love this phrase- expect more of this later on)
when you cheat, doesnt mean you are wrong... but it doesnt mean that you are right either...
but depending on the situation, the cheating might just help your ass out...
I'm not asking people to start cheating... especially the students - including me~
but trust me, we are already cheating in the first place...

I don't know about you guys... but I'd like to conclude that CHEATING IS OK IN A MODERATE WAY~


p/s - quoted from someone... "I'm less interested whether you are cheating or not in your test... what's important is how you are going to apply everything you've learnt in your life"

my story part 2

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so here's where the story continues...
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the bus arrived at 10.45pm... I was so angry at that time~
the problem was... I need to book for a flight ticket asap... but I couldnt do that until I'm certain that I could make it on time... and the late bus arrival made the situation worst... no!!! the fact that I've a mobile phone with no battery was what made it worst!!!
I did succeeded texting Pulah to help me book for the earliest flight available though...
when I look at the speed of the bus... I was certain that the time was behind me... but then the bus stop for like 30minutes at Kulim... oh my God!!! there were only 5 passengers... but why wait for 30min??? the bus was late at the first time... shouldnt they rushed to catch up with the lost precious time???
at 1st... I planned not to fall asleep with a stupid motive - so that I can check the TIME~
but my body just couldnt take it and I slept...
arrived at Bukit Jalil at 5am and quickly grabbed a cab... destination : KLSentral...
but the driver told me that he can drive me directly to LCCT... optimist, I took the offer...
on the way to the LCCT, I've been checking time like hell... wishing that I'll not be late... and I've already made a Plan B... should I came less than 30minutes b4 6.50am, I'll leave my luggage and asked anyone of my friends or cousins to get them for me... but if time is with me, then everything should be fine...
arrived at the LCCT 6.05am... phew~
problem solved? so close... yet so far~
when I entered the hall... the time was actually 6.58am!!!! STUPID CAB!!! reset your damn clock!!!
I was helpless...
I started to think that maybe I shouldnt go back... or maybe I just should wait at Penang...
then... the optimist aura came back to me...
went to the nearest ATM machine and check my account balance...
when the figure came out... RM450++ !!!!!!!!!
I was shocked!!! But then I realized that I didnt even leave my IC number to Pulah...
I was relieved... I withdraw as money cash as I could from all my active accounts and buy a new ticket...
and everything was solved~~~~~


that surely was one of a great lesson that I should learn and remember to death... we might have the perfect plan... but God will always have the final words... always have a back up plan in no matter what you do...

my story part 1

28th January 2010...
the day when everything went SO FUCKING WRONG!!!
it all started as early as when I tried to get a cab...
that uncle 1st stated that everything has been arranged... but when I'm ready, I called him once again to re-confirm...
and guess what?
"aiya... itu 1006 suda kluar o... u cari taxi lain..."
luckily Cepot gave me 2 contact numbers... and I did get a cab... at 2pm...
having the faith that there'll be a bus directly to Sg. Nibong, I'm optimist that I'll be on time... well actually I'm pretty confident of it because the person that told me that has been using that bus...
however, when I arrived at the terminal, I'd sensed something wrong...
true to my hunch, there were no bus...
I made up my mind to take the same cab to Butterworth...
supposedly, everything went fine and in time... but what the hell? this driver stopped for another customer... to make it worst, he prioritized the latter customer when it SHOULD BE ME!!!
next thing - I was detained from proceeding to the ferry by this guard... damn!!! there were 5 of us... all with luggages... but mine was the biggest... but why detained only me? why let the other through? and I wonder... do they really do that? As far as I could remember, they usually will just let us through... I've been there with larger luggage... or am I really have that stereotype criminal-looks on my face? or was it my behaviours that lead to suspicion??? (what can I do afterall??? i was in a hurry~)
and due to that... I miss the ferry by mere seconds... it was so frustrating when the gate is closing and there's nothing much you can do besides shouting, begging them to wait for you...
by that time... I already knew that my flight will be a waste...
long story short, I did missed the flight... theoretically, I didn't... but technically, it was less than 10minutes before departure...
I could wait for the next flight which is the day after or wait for the earliest MAS flight at higher price...
but I chose the odd 1... I made up my mind to go KL... it was sure a rush to Penang Sentral...
next challenge - all bus were occupied...
than there was this one person... offering bus at 10pm... I grabbed the ticket considering how desperate I was...
when I thought everything was over... the bus was not there until 10pm....



oh no... I am too tired to keep on typing... so I'll make the 2nd part of my story later on when I come back again... maybe 5 days from now... keep waiting~

one night in my room

wake up this morning with mixed feelings...
but more to annoyed...
a little bit dizzy... an indicator of how sleep deprived i am...
and i started to blame that 'someone'...
how can you be so selfish???
you came into my room... and you make noises as you wish...
dont you see how i was trying to get a sleep??? or you would rather see me giving a slap to your face??? i wonder~
yes... it's a public holiday the day after...
but that doesnt mean that i have to sleep late... why put misery to yourself when it's as crystal clear that you can take it anymore? that's what i called STUPID!!!
now the only reason why i didnt speak up was because you are my friend (it's hard to admit though)... but you are way too much...
i really hold back yesterday because i dont want to cause a scene...
but that's it...
last night was the last one...
try me again n let see where it lead us...
*hint : i'm not a physical-thingy guy...

fyp : off-topic

do you ever feel like "i know it's not my problem and i should stay away from it... but damn!!! that's just disturbing me!!!"
i do... all the time~

SOME people around me babbled about their FYP (*read FYP = Final Year Project)...
about how their progress is halted due to some reasons... and how they are worried for not being able to finish it on time...

duh~ like i care???

for me... how could you say you are worried when your action showed the other way round? when you are worried... you'll be busy moving here and there... meeting up your SV or co-SV like almost every seconds whenever possible... not just being idle and babbling of how worried you are~ you have time to sleep MORE than you should have when some of us are sacrificing ours... you have more time to do something which is totally nonsense... you still can make fun or look down at people who's struggling to get theirs done, yet you still babble... dont you think it is kind of reversal here?we are the one who SHOULD complaint!!!

and i hate the idea of taking other people as a scapegoat to hide the guilt inside you... you expect your SV or co-SV to be there for you 24/7... you expect them to solve EVERYTHING for you when you could use some of your POVs instead of relying on them (*afterall this is what you are going to do... you have the words too)... and when they failed to meet your expectation... you blamed them...

err... i think you've forgotten something here... they are ALL human being!!! they can't be there for you the whole time... and guess what? they have MUCH better and IMPORTANT things to do other than helping you free-riders!!!

well, i'm not saying these to any particular person... in fact, this goes to myself as well... as a reminder to do work mutually with my SV and co-SV... though i know i may be lacking in most parts and unconsciously fit to some of the 'bad things' i've been crapping above... but i told ot myself... at least i'm a step better than these GROUP of people because i showed some efforts... PERIOD~

Happy New Year 2011

it is now 2011...
but nothing much has changed...
well to be honest, I dont really believe in new year resolution...so dont ask mine~thank you...
because i know, most of the time, the resolution will not be achieved...
dont get me wrong... i dont go against the idea of having some...
at least it reminds us to put some efforts to everything we do...
but it's quite annoying when we make such grand resolution but in the end, ended with nothing...
and, do we need to wait until new year to change something for good?
come on~ 1 year is too long!!!
life is too short... we'll never know when the time is up... and by then, it's too late to regret everything...
so why dont change everything for good from time to time?
that sounds better~