woah!!!!
finally a new update from me...
just re-activated my celcom broadband...
which mean i can post more updates from now on~

sporty bonding

i love sports...
i've realized it long time ago...
sports connect us...
it knows no boundaries...
political conflicts???? they can directly go to hell!!!

let's take a smaller view...

i was away from UniMAP for more than 6 months to do my internship...
during that period, the tennis team has been established and lots of new faces came to join...
so when i came back... there's only few faces i'm familiar with... Muna, Shuhud, Libren, Conlathan... the rest??? negative~
but through sports... which is obviously tennis... we are bonding...
and the culmination would be during the Phuket Trip... everyone mixed very well together...
and now, we are 1 new happy family... care for each other... isn't it a nice thing sports can do???

so what are you waiting for??? pick any sports to indulge yourself into... and you get to lead a healthy life as a bonus~
:)

there is a man in an island... with reasons~

how does it feels when people keeps pestering you over certain things???
ANNOYING and I feel like smashing their faces to the wall!!!
so please stop doing that!!!

by the way, I have a lot in pocket, waiting to be published but it seems I'm a little bit 'weak' when it comes to narrating those stories in term of words when I'm in no mood~ lame~~~~

now people always said that I'm snobbish...
I'm over with that type of accusation long time ago...
but truth be told... I'm offended~
you dont know me!!!
is it necessary to say I'm a man in an island???


*i dont owned the pic... just grab randomly from the net~


how will you react if I confess the real reason why I've been acting that way???
I do have my own comfort personal space and I HATE people overcrossing that line!!!
I've learnt how to be independent in some ways so I HATE people when they depend 100% on me!!!
I am a sensitive guy and I HATE irrational jokes especially when it comes to my races, my cultures and my hometown (I didnt include religion because I dont want to cause any problems - that's a common sense everyone SHOULD know!!!)
and I HATE you when you tried to poison my mind with your no class mentality about other races...

the list could go on and on but I think I'll stop at that point...
if you are good enough (well I remembered vividly how proud you were when you claimed that) you know what I mean from this post...
CHANGE!!!

1st in august

1st in august...
and what's that supposed to mean????

DAMN BUSY!!!

we have this Synthesis & Process Design mini project...
well according to my friend at UTP, it is similar to Final Year Design Project for Chem Eng students there.. which is a 'complementary' project aside from the FYP~
and ALL Chem Eng students all over Malaysia will have to do the same...
well since we (Bioprocess Eng) are from the root of Chem Eng... we have to face the consequences~

our topic???
Plant Design For The Production Of Biofuel
our progress???
<50%
due date for the 1st submission???
3rd Sept 2010
the due date has been postponed for a week but still... it's a time issue for all of us..
we have midterms waiting... GMP's PBL...another mini project(waste treatment) that yet to commence, and the main agenda - FYP!!!

great~ a 'nice' workloads for the final year students!!!



p/s - we are granted equal time of 24hrs/day... but its never enough especially for students like us... it's very hard to well-manage our time... we are more determine to spend our time doing things we like... that appears to be nonsense when compared to our education... what to do???

wishlist

top 3 of what I am going to get for this semester!!!

#1 new phone
well... I never buy a mobile phone using my own money... and come to think of it... some of my mobile phones were 'leftover' from my parents... even now... I am using my little brother's mobile phone... pathetic huh? that's why I decided to have one...
previously, I have Nokia 5800 XM in my mind... but the price is not worthy given that the phone was released in 2008... it should be around rm700++ in KK but here it's still RM800++
so I'm going for this phone... I told myself if I can any cheaper than RM990, I'll take it... why RM990? because my friend just bought it in Shah Alam and it was RM990...
guess what? I found 1 at RM970... I dont care if it is Zitron or AP phone... as far as I am concern... I really need a new phone... badly~
so wait for me NOKIA C6!!!



#2 new racquet
hahaha... I am a beginner in tennis... but I really feel like having 1 good racquet... I defined good racquet as a racquet that is being used by professionals... I have to admit that I was a Babolat fan before... since Roddick is using 1... but I changed my preference to Wilson... I was thinking of having Federer's latest BLX racquet... but to think wisely, using racquet that is being used by him is not going to make me star too... so I changed my choice to another racquet that have a bigger head size~ Federer's is 90" but this one is 100" since I always love a racquet with a bigger head size~
so wait for me WILSON BLX PRO OPEN




#3 new external harddisk
my laptop is very primitive compared to my friends'... what to do? I bought this Acer Aspire 5580 Series on early Jan, 2008~ previously, I have 2 ext hds of capacity 80gb... both... I don't know what was happening actually but at 1 time before I started my Industrial Training, both of them broke!!! I didn't really felt the lost of the hd... but I'm more frustrated of losing all the contents... whatever it is...
I'm going to get a 640gb EXTERNAL HARDDISK soon~





p/s - I'll get the top 2 as early as tomorrow... I've spotted the shop for the Nokia C6 and I'm waiting for my money... I've ordered the Wilson BLX Pro Open racquet and it is due next week~ ext hd? I'll wait for my allowance... which WILL take years~ but I can bear with it... lol~

govt staffs?

huhu... it's so hard to update this blog... why?

1. bad connection in hostel
2. stupid broadband

anyway...
here's my story...

"shit!!! I hate ALL government staffs!!!

I've overheard that from a girl last Saturday...
of course it is due to the poor management of the staffs...
well I was a bit furious upon hearing that...
hey, my parents are government staffs too... it's like she was talking bad to my parents!!!

but recently... I started to do the same... cursing SOME of the staffs...
maybe because I put my mom as my benchmarker...
she's a workaholic... she even bring her works to home!!!
so I find it hard to tolerate when I deal with people of the same nature of work, but with poor performances...
I was told that our scholarships were distributed already...
and my friends already received theirs...
but me???

I gave the Bendahari few more days and luckily when I check my online information after that, my fee has been already paid... of course it is deducted from the scholarship, simply saying that the money is now available~
but when a friend of mine came to pick up the cheque, they told him that they were IN THE MIDDLE OF ISSUING the cheque and they asked him to come again THE NEXT DAY
I came a little bit late that day and was told that they HAVEN'T PROCESS the cheque yet and I should come NEXT WEEK!!! and I try to test them... I called the next day... guess what was the answer???WE'VE ALREADY ISSUED YESTERDAY... BUT YOU CAN COLLECT THEM THIS FRIDAY~
wth????!!!

dont give different answers!!! when there is no specific answer, I consider it as excuses!!! and when it comes to excuses, it really shows that you DONT DO YOUR WORK!!!
argh!!!






p/s - sorry if I made the wrong accusation... but that is what I feel... I wonder... is it fair for the other government staffs that really dedicated to their work but they have to face these negative perceptions from the public? just because of SOME ungrateful people taking their jobs loosely???

busy

it's a 2nd week of a new semester already...
and as expected...
this semester is a total CHAOS!!!
it started with a COMPLETE OPEN-ENDED laboratory session...
and then the pile-up of on-going projects...

~sigh~

and the Final Year Project is not to be taken lightly~
and I still have to attend training session for team tennis...
argh~ I hardly have time to rest...
but being myself... I'll never back down!!!
bring it on and try me!!!





p/s - I'm still wondering how did I managed to handle 10 subjects, being a prefect, being a debater, and being an athlete for almost all sports during my golden secondary school years~ hmmm...

event #2 Tamat Latihan

okay...
we had 2 weeks training in UniMAP before going to UM...
some people were so fired up...
that it affected every words, actions and emotions...
in a good way... but also in a bad way~
it made us... no... SOME of us very tensed up...
apart from being a 2 tones skin-colour people!!!
the stories from day to day were too often mixed up with negative messages... at least from how I'd interpret those stories~





however...
things turned out to be better from our imagination when we arrived at UM...
the 1st day of training went by without us noticing...
I wouldn't complaint on the menu... since it's getting better... although we had to endure some period where we had identical menu everyday~ up to the point where I don't think that I'll be able to face any eggs anymore!!!





training?
the main problem was to make the many of us become ONE!
S.Y.N.C.H.R.O.N.I.Z.I.N.G~
the whole 2 weeks... that's what we were doing...
perfecting every moves... though to me seemed impossible...
fainting people were everywhere and at the end of the day, you wouldn't believe the figure... but that's normal...






sleeping deprivation was another problem... from 7am - 4pm we had training at the Padang Kawad... and from 8.30pm - 1am we had training at the Dewan Tuanku Canselor...
but that's just an approximation... some day it could be worst!!!!
main effect? unstable emotions and frequent mood changes~
I even saw a girl talked back to her Jurulatih in a very rude way~
and we had some issues with our Jurulatih too...
but in our case, I would personally blamed the egoism, ignorance, superiority and bad-communication...
sorry but I don't wish to remember back what had happened... to put thing simple... IMMATURE!!!








19th JUNE 2010...
one of my most memorable day in my life...
and I was very shocked to see how we marched that day...
I don't think that I'll be easily forget all the memories...
I've always told my friends how I hate being in SUKSIS...
but deep down inside me, I'll never regretted the choice I've made~



CREDIT TO : RAAI for the pics... taken from http://pkukmweb.ukm.my/~jurufoto/galeri%202010/tauliah%20suksis/index.html and KOPERALPJ for the vid... sorry I lost the link and I can't access YouTube from here~

a great start for a new semester?

argh!!!
I shouldn’t bought my return flight ticket on the 11th July… I still can work on something if I’m going back earlier…but how would I know that this will be happening???

Okay… there’s this massive changes in students residential… in other word, new house, new housemates and new roommate (damn it!!! I miss those days when a single room is still available – absolute privacy!!!)
Mine?



There you go… I’m the sole bioprocess 4th year student… Anuar? He was initially in the same batch as me… but due to some problems, he had to start as a 3rd year student… but that's what I heard from my friends... we don't have the click... whatever~ My roommate, Wan Mohd Asyrannie is in the same batch… but I never heard that name. So what I did was to search him on Facebook and I found him…19 mutual friends… okay~ familiar face… but it’s useless because I never talk to him… we are still strangers to each other

Trivia : He’s a PALAPES and I’m a SUKSIS… great? I doubt it~

The other guys… I’ve seen all of their faces except Hafizuddin… and Muhd. Nur is the current president of the student representative council… I don’t know if this is an advantage to me but I don’t feel good… huhu~ paranoid? No comment…
What makes me exaggerating thing is that most of my colleagues get to have their roommates from our colony(read : bioprocess engineering students) I don’t know about you guys but to have a roommate from the same course is really a big help~ but hey, this is nothing right? I’ve been in this situation before… and I survived… it’s not impossible to have a replay huh? And it’s only for 1 year… I think I can handle it(I hope….) and I can always ask to change room if I really want… so I guess problem is solved???

Yeah… but why do I still have these feelings???? I hate it!!!!


p/s – wondering how did they arranged us… if it is to instill integrity (1 Malaysia), they would considerably(is this even a word??) failed!!! There’s no Chinese or Indian in my house… and if it’s a random pick… doesn’t look so to me… or maybe lady luck is not with me?? Yeah~ that should be it… I really have limited good lucks (I didn’t get the free pass to MTV World Stage and I gave up after 1 week trying)

event #1 INTERNSHIP

industrial training aka IT...

if I were given a chance to turn back time, I will never pick palm oil mill!!!
when I 1st came to the mill, I have to admit that I had a very big expectation...
but I was turned down immediately...
why?
THE MANAGEMENT WAS VERY POOR!!!

I met the mill manager the next day and we had a less than 10 minutes discussion...
maybe I was the one to be blamed but I just dont know what else to ask... it's normal for a first timer... but it's not normal for the seasoned 1... I was not the 1st trainee... they should have known better~

I received my schedule 2 weeks after that... and thanks to my perseverance... I went to see the mill manager everyday asking for it... I am not blaming the mill manager... it's the clerk!!! and she always had this annoying expression whenever I asked for something...

ok fine~ bottom line, I still got the schedule... but hey~ the guideline was more into mechanical engineering... I was not surprised because the mill manager did asked what course I'm in... and when I told him I'm a BIOPROCESS ENGINEERING student, he showed me a face(read: what? you're not a mechanical engineering student? then what are you doing here?????) but he perfectly covered that by saying it's okay because I am learning... good point!

ok... I'll make this short... I did managed to study the whole process and understand every departments function... I did some hand jobs, a simple one though... bla bla bla~
my point is... I gained so little!!!! I am not complaining(actually I am) but giving me works that weren't my field is ridiculous!!! I ended up doing those works for the sake of completing the 6 months period of IT!!!I'm not applying what I've learnt theoretically in class... I was learning something new but with no guides!!! dont accused me of being ignorant... I did asked... but what do you expect from them? I went to the engineer and even the mill manager... guess what? here's the answer...
"IF I TELL YOU, WHAT'S THE POINT OF DOING IT?GO AND FIND IT YOURSELF" I am very lucky if the manager gave some explanation...(which he rarely did since he was busy)... 1 more thing... they expect me to do some hand on jobs... but they were too afraid to let me do the jobs!!! wtf??!! there's one incident where they took me as a scapegoat too!!! damn it!!!
*for those who have no idea click here

another thing that really made me sick was the way they think of something... well, not all of them but majority kills minority right? huh~ I dont think that I should write it down here... I'll tell you guys if you ask me once again... verbally~ haha...

however, looking on the bright side... my IT was not that bad...why? here's some of the reasons



p/s - I was not the only one who agreed with my point(read: giving me works that weren't my field is ridiculous)... the other trainees too, agreed... when the Mechanical Engineering student from UMS were told to learn the process, he confessed to me that it's wasting his time... it's not his field anyway, but for the sake of completiong IT with good comments, he did. Although this crap philosophy(what a word choice huh?) might seems acceptable among students, it might not in the real working world... we are paid to do our job. If our employer asks us to do what's beyond our expectation, than we have to(or at least give it our best) because it's our responsibility...

come back alert!!!

Ok… if you noticed, I’ve done some express make over to my blog… and I know I’ve been idling for a long time… whatever~ it’s just that I’m not as enthusiastic as I was before…

Luckily, I’ve found new reason why I shouldn’t quit doing this stuff…
Guess what? I’m going to undergo my remaining 1 year as an undergraduate soon… there will be (I hope) more dramas and conflicts… and I think it will be just nice to share these experiences with whoever stumbles on this site… accidently or intentionally… I prefer the latter~

Anyway, it’s not just for the dramas and conflicts… I reckon being in the final year will give me a shitty hell of living as a student… challenges will rise unstoppable… to prevail or to fail... the choice is in the hand~ my point is… this will be a stressful year and I’ll be needing this blog to come clean… typical old me huh? Afraid of stepping up and speak my mind out loud… I’m too soft… argh!!! I hate it!!!
I think that’s enough for the time being… at least enough to make me stop thinking of quitting~

And hey, I’ll be posting some LIMITED big events that were happening IN MY LIFE for the past 8 months… this is a promise...

a reminder to myself~

keep holding on~
yeah...
fucking absolutely suit me NOW...
i was going to break...
but it's almost 3 years now and i've endured all the obstacles so far..
so I thought to myself...
why now?
and that gave me the spirit to keep holding on...

it's true that we human are very susceptible to giving up...
but we forget something important...
we are not utilizing our self-potential to the fullest...
the only thing we need is the determination and persistence... *please bother to add more if u thing this is lacking~
a little believing in ourselves to boost self-esteem...
and WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS~

so guys...
let's rock!!!!



p/s - sori la... ada yg teda dlm pic ni... sepa suru nda trn begambar aritu... hehe~

exhausted

i let the picture tells the story~



p/s - will not going to be actively updating this blog... at least not until 20th June 2010~

the ending~

14th May 2010…
Finally~
end of internship…
There was no farewell party… and there were too little goodbyes~

But I don’t care…
I went there… joined the muster for the last time… and I straight away went to the office to settle whatever things left…
I went back to the housing estate… continued packing my stuffs… and I was ready to go…
But as usual, transportation is the main problem so I have to wait until 11am before I leave the camp…

While waiting… the 6 months experiences flashed back…
To be honest, I’ll be missing Minat Teguh Palm Oil Mill(MTPOM)…
There were so many things happened while I was there… and they taught me the lessons of life…

I got to know more about people and I’ve learnt how to deal with people…
I’ve learnt that there is an extent to which we are allowed to be close with someone…
I’ve learnt that we have our own path of life and not all people are lucky as we are…
I’ve learnt that giving up easily is a taboo…
I’ve learnt that we are from the same root… titles are temporary… what really matters is our manners...
I’ve learnt how to be professional…
I’ve learnt that our best friends could be the one backstabbing us…
I’ve learnt that superiority could leads to unhealthy competition…
I’ve learnt not to be selfish…
I’ve learnt to be independent…
I’ve learnt a lot…

Thanks MTPOM for the lessons!!!

reluctantly... i came back to MTPOM yesterday...

1. my INTERNSHIP MOOD is WEARING OFF...
2. almost 6 HOURS to reach the destination???
3. i dont have any electric fan...
4. the house is TOO DUSTY no matter HOW HARD i clean it up!!!
5. POOR water QUALITY!!!
6. the people...

argh... the point is... i dont like being here ANYMORE!!!
i really hope the manager will allow me to end my internship earlier...

i still remember you

wow~
i never thought the feeling of being remembered by someone we were not closed with is very refreshing~
i mean, for us to remember someone that we hardly speak with... is just hard... especially when it took years before you start to communicate again...i mean from 2000? that's a long way~
not for the sake of self-boasting...
i personally think that there must be something in whatever i did that really leave marks for them to remember me... right?
be it good or bad, we'll never know...
but we can be sure that if it's bad, the responds would not be so good...
or maybe it's time to turn over a new leaf?
well, even if what we did were bad,
we are getting matured everyday by reflecting what childish things we have done before...
so let's get along now~



p/s - my junior and ex-dormmate, Lyester thanked me last night for some advices... i was(hard to admit) touched somehow~

everything happens for a reason... but what it is?

okaylah...

did the presentation last thursday...
actually it was hell... but i'm getting over it slowly...
maybe my slides were not good - i didnt have pictures...
but to say that I've not prepared at all... HELL WRONG!!!
i could answer all questions given to the previous student...
and i was expecting to have the same grueling Q n A session...
however, the moment they asked me to skip half of my presentation... i was morally down...
and guess what? there were no questions...
and i was the only 1!!!!
that really made me feel something was wrong~

then i started to blame the student before me...
if only he did not 'steal' my presentation... well actually he did his internship in a palm oil mill too... and claimed to be assigned with the maintenance team...
if so, then what he was presenting was totally out as it was all about the processes...
which should be done by ME!!!
it did not just affected him, but me as well!
lucky i still have laboratory in my hand...
i am a big fan of doing Plan B after all... lol~

but i cannot blame him actually...
everything happens for a reason and we just have to learn to accept it...
something better might come out very soon... or not~



p/s - i did succeed on peeping my marks... for every criteria, none of them got half of the total marks... sucks man!!!

how we judged people

Tell me what’s your speculation when you :
Scenario 1 -see two hot good-looking guys walking together?
Scenario 2 - see a boyish girl holding hand with a sexy chick?
Don’t fake it… nowadays most of us will answer these…
Scenario 1 – they are GAY!!!
Scenario 2 – LESBIAN!!!
And sometimes… both answers end up with a disgusting “EURGH~” or maybe to begin with… or… “wow! that’s hot~” perhaps?
Now tell me what’s your speculation when you :
Scenario 3 – see two ordinary stereotype guys walking together?
Scenario 4 – see two lady-like girls walking hand in hand in public?
I bet most of us will answer this…
Scenario 3 and 4 - … is there anything wrong with that?

Those are just some examples how we, Malaysians especially the youngsters interpret things~
New generations always condemn the veterans… saying that they are too narrow-minded…
But the truth is, we are in the same league…
We judge people by their looks…
We never know whether those guys and girls in Scenario 1 and 2 are really homosexual if we don’t know them WELL…
And we never know those guys and girls in Scenario 3 and 4 are straight…

So now, I’m asking a question…
Are we doing fair here??
If we don’t want people to judge us, why should we judge others?


p/s – wondering what is the difference between the terms GAY, HOMOSEXUAL, LESBIAN, PENGKID~

owh don't blame me...
blame the electricity....
but i managed to post 2 entries...
so technically... I've succeeded~

CAKAP TAK SERUPA BIKIN

few weeks ago, saya ada mentioned yang saya akan berpindah lagikan?
well guess what? tak jadi pindah pun... lagipun, minah cleaner yang patut dipindahkan di situ atas masalah peribadi sudah resigned... she got accepted as a Cikgu Sandaran...

few days ago, the Mill Assistant (MA) came to the lab with a form...
so being busybody as i am, i went to him to see what he was doing...
err... there were 3 of us actually... Sylvia, Amour and me...
it was actually the mill accommodation mapping...
he was trying to re-arrange them...

dipendekkan cerita,
ada sorang mamat ni... Junaide... dia tinggal sorang sebab wife n daughter dia tinggal luar... kalo diikutkan, he's not suppposed to have a whole house by himself... and that's why dia SEPATUTNYA dipindahkan ke rumah lain...
but when the MA said that, everybody went silent...
then the MA said, "but it would be troublesome if it is Junaide"
and he added few seconds after that... purposely locking his eyes onto me
"but that's not the matter... if you are asked to move, you SHOULD... admin doesn't want any excuses..."

hello???
kalo tak puas ati, cakap...
before this, i personally went to him and said that IF POSSIBLE, I don't want to move until 14/5... and i said IF POSSIBLE... but he didn't say anything and just nodded...
so why only now he said that to me?
i don't think i have done anything wrong... i still remember when i first came there... he said "NO, YOU SHOULD ASK FOR IT... THAT'S YOUR RIGHT"
well according to the mill management, trainees will be given 1 house...
so why asked me to move out and share with other people when i have that privilege? isn't it violating my right?
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one answer...
CAKAP TAK SERUPA BIKIN!!!

i'm back

isn't it funny?
due to bad internet connection... i often draft my entry in Words...
and when i go back home for weekends, i just need to upload them...
but i didn't...
maybe i've lost a small portion of my self-bravery when it comes to blogging...
or have i lost the interest to share my feelings?
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ok... i dont think so... i'm quite a publicist in some ways though i might not appear like 1... and this is the medium... so... i'll keep on blogging~
be it some informative entries of just some craps... i dont care~

p/s - i'm going to upload 2 - 3 entries by tomorrow...

environment activist at 6.05am

Tiada salah kalau kita menjaga kebersihan persekitaran rumah kita… that’s a good practice afterall. The only problem is when it is done at the WRONG time!!!

Come on lah~ timbang rasa sikit… pagi2 lagi buat hal sudah… I know I have no right to interfere but I do think it’s a little crossing the line…

Pakcik, you know well jiran pakcik tu kerja shift pagi this week…and it was 6.05am and you came, throwing tantrum… pakcik, 6.05am!! it’s late, TOO late~ (*orang muda, mau buat macam mana?memang liat bangun pagi) dia tengah mandi, kenapa mau kacau??? Suruh keluar and bersihkan longkang??? Pakcik mabuk ka?



I know pakcik tidak sanggup lagi kena marah ngan employer kan? Tapi that’s not the way… Nampak sangat pakcik hipokrit and tidak ikhlas… kenapa? Sebab before this, pakcik tidak pernah bising2 pasal longkang… sampai tahap tersumbat and berbau pun pakcik buat bodoh jak kan? Tapi once saman dikeluarkan, notis untuk halau keluar dari rumah dikeluarkan… baru pakcik mengelabah… Apa kes?? And what’s funny… pakcik tu rumah tengah… takkanlah mau bersihkan longkang part rumah pakcik saja? Nonsense!!memang sah2 itu 1 tindakan yang BODOH!! Air tetap juga akan masuk ke longkang kawasan pakcik… jadi pakcik jangan mau salahkan orang lain…



Cuba pakcik timing betul2… after 3pm kan dorang habis shift dah… cuba approach time tu and minta kerjasama dorang untuk sama2 clear out mana2 yang tersumbat ka, cuci mana yang kotor ka… kan senang???ataupun buat 1 informal meeting untuk bincang pasal pembersihan longkang ni… kalau setiap rumah ditugaskan setiap hari pun rasanya tidak jadi masalah… I can guarantee it will only take max 10minutes to do it… Pakcik jangan takutlah rumah sebelah tidak mau cooperate sebab 1 kilang tau macam mana budak2 yang tinggal sana RAJIN!!! And baik hati, and menghormati orang yang lebih tua~ btw pakcik, please bagitau anak pakcik kalau mau berak di rumah orang, please do it properly… bukan lepas buang tidak mau flush… pastu biarkan sisa2 tu bertaburan atas lantai tandas… bertamadun sikitla…

*even kucing pun tau berak BERSOPAN~

See??? Settle 1 problem without bising2 awal pagi yang menganggu ketenteraman orang lain sehinggakan pakcik diumpat oleh para pekerja sepanjang perjalanan ke kilang…

pindah rumah lagi

I’ve said it before… I’m going to move out again. This time, I’ll be living with Tracy and Ronald…

MUKTAMAD!!!
Malam ni saya akan pindah… kalau ikutkan hati, memang saya tidak mau pindah… mungkin alasan saya tidak kuat tapi bila kena pindah rumah :

1. Packing barang – walaupun 6 bulan jak tempoh praktikal, surprisingly I have a lot of stuff with me… even some that I haven’t use since the day I came here… got to do something about it but that’s another thing… kalau mau pack, mesti ambil masa… boleh jak kalau main sumbat jak… tapi lain pulak masalah yang timbul nanti… sedangkan saya balik every weekend pun mau packing ambil masa setengah jam… tu baru 3 helai baju, 1 slack n some boxers… kalau packing semua barang???



2. Kemas rumah lama – when you move out, this is the last thing you should do… takkan la mau tinggalkan dalam keadaan yang ala2 sarang babi kan? (walaupun time kami masuk keadaan dia mmg mcm tu… BODOH punya previous orang *cannot say tenant since sewa tidak dibayar~) and of course this will take time and LECEH!!! Kalau tidak buat, nanti kena cakap2 pulak kan? Faham2 jakla keadaan sini macam mana…. Bukan mau look down tapi that’s the fact… I’ll blog about it when I have time…



3. Angkat barang – kau ingat tilam ringan kah? Kalau setakat tilam yang macam sponge tu tidak pa… tp ni yang jenis getah punya… ala2 tilam jenama GETHA time di SMSL and KML dulu…. Oops… di UniMAP pun sama jugak~ tu belum campur kotak2 lagi… beg2 lagi… I wouldn’t mind juga actually kalau sebelah rumah jak… tapi ni sebelah blok!!! Sudahlah saya rumah depan… kena pindah pulak rumah paling belakang di blok sebelah… GREAT!!!



4. Kemas rumah baru – of course!!! Takkan mau tinggal dalam sarang babi kan? Walaupun ala kadar, still akan ambil masa and it’s tiring…

5. Unpack barang – this one saja jak saya masukkan sebagai alasan… actually this is the easiest part of all… hehehe~

6. Panas – yes… PANAS!!! Considering time kami pindah di squatter ni cuma tinggal 2 months saja lagi saya praktikal, I’ve decided not to buy a stand fan… macam membazir and susah mau urus… yala, tempat ni bukan dekat… and transportation is another problem… so kalau da penat and berpeluh2 tu, sah2 akan rasa panas kan? Manusia bila panas, emosi tidak tenteram… rasa macam mau marah jak… kena pulak ngan saya yang memang panas baran… memang hancurla… nanti tidak pasal2 orang lain yang kena carut…



7. Privacy – this one really disturbing… 1 rumah ada 2 bilik. Satu bilik, Tracy. Satu bilik, Ronald. Means I have to sleep outside… well, itu tidak menjadi masalah… tapi ruang tamu tu pusat pertemuan 2 bilik tu… so faham2 jakla… I have no privacy!!! Bukan selfish or tamak, but it’s my habit bila tengok movie dalam lappy, I want to be alone… tapi lepas tu kalo dorang mau tengok, I don’t mind… but how should I translate that into verbal? Susahla… salah cakap, orang terasa pulak… bukan setakat tu jakla… kalau ber’calling’ pun sama juga… no privacy… if I want to sleep early pun, rasa lain juga… call me weird but that’s true!!! Try fitting yourself in my shoe…



Tapi apa boleh buat? Semata-mata untuk kepentingan orang lain, kita terpaksa mengalah… toleransi konon, sampai bila kita jak yang terpaksa mengalah???

to help or not to help?

*this entry should be posted on thursday but due to connection problem... i only managed to post it today~duh~

I’ll be moving out again for the third time… this time, I’ll be living next to Tracy Visperas Zembrano and Ronald, the Pinoys duo… whatever… lucky me accommodation is provided FOC… though it is not much different when compared to squatters, but who cares?? It’s not like I’ll be here forever… 1 month plus to go~ and I do believe I’ll be able to hold on until then…

I was quite angry this morning…
It’s not like I don’t want to throw the rubbish… but I believe the owner is still in perfect condition… no need to be helped but yet?? He’s so wrong if he think I’ll enslaved myself for him FOREVER… it’s not that I have lost the sense of courtesy but I’ve helped him so much… SO MUCH and what do I get? NOTHING but a BACKSTABBING! And of course… a ruined, approved(by mill manager) flowchart of mine which I’ve spend almost 1 month to complete it… what a way to pay huh?



ever read or heard the story of a caterpillar… one kind person helped it when evolving into a butterfly… but in the end, the butterfly can’t fly, and eventually die… moral of the story? You tell me… the same thing applies to my situation… if I were to help him in everything, he’ll never learn!! I’m glad that the other guy understood… but this 1 is really headstrong…



my only way to handle this type of ungrateful person is simply by neglecting them… but he labeled me as a snobbish person and I hate it!!! I HATE IT! And I bet he’s been spreading wrong facts about me already… not to forget using my name to cover all his doings… I’m not being paranoid here… but the girls in the canteen already told me how he used my name… damn it!!! Though it might be a trifling matter… but that’s scary… if he has the gut to use our name, there’s a chance he’ll be using our name again for other matter… how worst is that?



I just hope that I can’t still maintain my composure… hopefully~

Oops… before I forgot, Masitah and I saw two guys kissing in public while waiting to punch out our punch cards… lol~ get a room guys~

i'm a goat????

consider this scenario...

a sample of palm oil is to be determine its FFA value.
Mr. A did the testing and he get a value of 4.99.
Mr. B did the testing and he get a value of 4.94.
Mr. C did the testing and he get a value of 4.78.
4.78 is just enough to release the tanker...



but when the oil reached to the customer and FFA testing is done once again, they get a value of 5.04....
there you go... 4.99, 4.94, 4.78 and 5.04
you do the maths and tell me which one is the odd one...
the oil DOESNT cheat!!!
but we, human... DO!!!
and please stop looking for a scapegoat...
you're seasoned... it's not so professional to seek for a way out (in a negative way) instead of discussing how to overcome the problem...
i just hate it...
especially when i am the scapegoat...
damn it!!

ok... maybe i'm the one who's being paranoid all the time...
but i just can't help it...
the way you speak clearly shows that i am the one who should be blame...
is it wrong to WRITE WHAT WE DO AND GET??
you're such a pathetic hypocrite LOSER!!!!
well thanks to you I lost my respect for you!

wake up calls

Currently on sulking mood…
Not going to the lab for 3 days…
I’ll blog about it later…

Yesterday, when I was waiting to punch out my punch card, I bumped into kak Fatimah and uncle rustin… kak Fatimah asked me which U I’m attending… she thought I was from unitar or uitm… she n uncle rustin joined forces to give me some wakeup calls…

Kak Fatimah : randy, kadang2 kita belajar tinggi2, tapi kalo rezeki kita tiada, tidak juga kita dapat kerja bagus2 tu… macam akak la… akak tidakla blajar tinggi mana… stakat lepasan diploma jak tp kerja jadi security… adik abang akak ada yg stpm, spm tp lg berjaya dari akak…jadi kalo bole nanti bila mau cari kerja jangan pilih kerja…

UncleRustin : ada tu anak buah saya… lepasan U… law… tp sampai sekarang tiada kerja… last2 dia ambil juga position manager estate… tp dia still usaha cari kerja sebab dia btul2 mau jadi peguam… jadi kita belajar dari orangla… nanti kalo kau jadi macam tu pun, buat juga macam tu… sementara kau cari kerja yg betul2 kau mau, ambil dulu peluang yang ada… cukup la mau cover hidup sementara… sampai bila mau ibu bapa tanggung kan?

I was just like... wow~
this life is not always as beautiful as we thought it would be...
Now planning for my future… hopefully everything will be just fine…

INTERNSHIP

the title said it... INTERNSHIP~
well I've gotten myself a spot in IJM Plantation Bhd and was 'thrown' to Minat Teguh Palm Oil Mill (MTPOM)...
the moment i arrived at the entrance gate... i knew that my life will be a total misery... especially when i was told that it takes roughly 9km to reach the housing estate(and approx. 3km to the mill)...
there was no network coverage...
which means i'll be lost in contact... and my broadband will be useless!!!
luckily it was just temporary..
but still, 3 bars of signal really doesn't show a good sign to me...
and i have to rely on the unstable gprs line for online purpose... it sucks man!!

well, the first week of internship was totally messed up... i ended up wandering off with no direction as if i were abandoned(or should i say I AM ABANDONED?)
but everything changed after two weeks when i finally got my training schedule... honestly, the content are more to LEARNING and not WORKING...
how am i supposed to apply theories i've learnt?
but looking on the bright side, at least i have direction now...

my life?seriously... worst than my boarding school year... i have no television!i have to admit that i'm not a tv-guy and it doesnt really bothered me if i have none, except for this situation... or maybe i was just looking for excuses to avoid staying there?i was so desperate up to the point where i have no regret at all spending my money to book a room in town for 1 day!worthy? NOT AT ALL!!!and being an introvert guy i am, i wasnt good in making friends... but i have a few to talk to anyway...

did i mentioned i have to wake up early in the morning everyday? well i have to be at the assembly point on 6.30am to attend the morning muster... without a doubt... that is one of the hardest thing to do considering how all-nighter i am... duh~

i got more in my closet actually but since this is just the introductory part, let it be this short(is it???)... more to come...